''I Carry your heart with me ( I carry it in my heart ) i am never without it , anywhere i go you go'' - E.E Cummings
I did not mention in my last post , he went to Canada to further his studies Last Monday ,
7th February 2011 .. Love once again has tear us apart..
Was on Skype with him the other day , God knows how much I miss
him . The weather in Toronto is really cold , he is trying to adapt to the
changes and learning about his new place. School is going to start soon , I was so worried , before he left I was having a bad cold and seems like he got it from me. As we
chatted I was crying , and somehow ironically he knew . He asked me am I crying, I said NO..he knew I was lying. I did not want him
to worry because I want him to move on , he has a new life there, new faces to
meet , and most probably he will meet someone new soon. Inside me I am dying , it was hard enough to be so far away from him, I could
not touch him or hug him. He told him it was hard for him too but he won't show
it to me because he knows I will cry. He knows I have not been sleeping for the past few days, why am I being so
It's hard to act tough, I am falling apart. Days goes on, life seems the same. Every morning when I wake up I look at the sky, and wonders what is he doing ,the time difference is really crazy. Under the same sky, but miles and miles apart. I told him not to worry about me, because he is in my heart , so he is always near to me. He asked me if I like snow, he showed me the view from his condo.
Well if things were meant to be, I might give up everything in Malaysia to be with him.
Its too early to decide now ...if he found someone better I will let him go with an open heart.
''Can you help me?
Can you let me go
And can you still love me
When you can't see me anymore''
♫ Of the Moment :KT Tunstall - Other Side of the World