Monday, 22 April 2013

My Best Friends' Weddings

According to Chinese legend, the deity in charge of "the red thread" is believed to be Yuè Xià Lǎo ,  the old lunar matchmaker god who is also in charge of marriages.
The two souls tied up by the red thread are destined lovers, regardless of time, place, or circumstances. This magical cord may stretch or tangle, but never break. 

 I once asked a good friend a silly question, what makes her want to get married and her answer is "I got tired of searching and endlessly dating the wrong people. With him, I knew right away that I have found the one"

Growing up in a broken family, I have never believed in marriage. Mum told me how my dad promises her the world. She believed he would take her away from hell, my  mum has gone through a bad childhood and I won’t write much about that now because I have much respect and love for my late grandparents. My dad turns his back and walked out on us when I was 6, leaving my mum with 3 children to raise by herself. He puts her in hell and what kind of man would abandon his family? A coward. In my teenage years, I watched how my mum’s sister was cheated by her husband with her best friend and ended up in a divorce. My aunt has been dating her ex husband since she was 15, it was a bitter ending but the women in my family are strong..well except me..
Last year, I was running the bridesmaid marathon. I watched how my friends and their partners embraced a new chapter of life. Weddings are beautiful, in fact it's a celebration of love and that's where you get to hear the most emotional and powerful vows. The last wedding I attended in January, I was busy checking my phone to see if there's any calls or texts. It has been days and there is no reply to all my E-mails and texts, no return calls.. In the dinner reception, one can feel so lost and empty even when you are surrounded by friends. It was one of the worst feeling, I wish I could erase how I felt on that night.
I guess it must be wonderful to be able to grow old with the person you love.
Someone who sees a future with you, a man who will not destroy you.

In my dreams, we grow old together

  ♫ of the moment:  The Shins - Simple song