Tragic Fairy Tales

FriYAY - Picture should paint happiness

2012-01-13T11:23:00.003+08:00

Friday has always been my favorite day of the week.
And so i've decided that every 5th day of the week i will share 5 random things which made me smile.
Here we go

Cotton candy (pink cloud machine)

Letter, train tickets and charms from Japan ( Thanks Ekoy )

Pretty flowers

Pretending to be white rabbits

Last but not least, my current fav song

A Toast to better things in life

2012-01-05T12:30:00.000+08:00

May the New Year be kind to everyone

Everyone is busy writing down their resolutions, i have a long list of things which i wish i could do this year. Not to mention how i never accomplish any from the previous years.
For now, all i want is to be a less angry person, and i wish i could learn to let certain things in life go.
I wish lust, hatred, greed, jealousy, and the monsters in my head will not win the battle.
May i grow older gracefully but remain young in heart

Wish all you a Happy New Year

♫ Of the Moment : Sigur Rós - Sæglópur

So I just did me some talking to the sun

2011-12-28T10:05:00.001+08:00

Wow, where should i begin, its been a while or shoud i say it has been too long. I remembered when i started my blog 3 years ago, i write all the time. TragicFairyTales has been best my friend, my personal journal and once a place where i am free to write down all my emotions and the ups and downs of life.

Then when it started to attract attention and new readers, i got lost of my true indentity, i started to hold back what i wanted to say in fear of offending readers and in fear that people might not like what i write. My friends asked why did i abandoned my blog at its peak when it started to gain massive followers. I started with less than 10 followers in 2009 and suddenly by making a few blog friends from all over the world, the followers shoot up to 200++ within three months then i quit writing.

Today i finally have the answer, its because i got too carried away by trying to make the blog famous.
I guess i cared too much about how many new followers i will gain or how many comments i may receive in a single post that i finally got so sick of it and decided to run away an hide and neglect something which i once love so much which is to write from heart.

But now i am back for good, to be sincere with my thoughts , to stop writing in contradictions and to continue being a genuine and honest writer. I couldn't be more grateful for all the friends i have made, none has been forgotten and especially those who stayed through out the days when the blog has went on hiatus.

Cheers to Tragic Fairy Tales and all its awesome readers ♥

Joanna Wang - Raindrops Keep Fallin on my Head

Plastic Bag is NOT Cool

2011-11-18T09:28:00.006+08:00

Modern technology Owes ecology An apology

I guess everyone has heard about Global warming but how many of us has actually help save our dying Earth? Me myself has been ignorant , because as selfish as i am , i used to say there's billions of people in the world , it makes no difference if i am trying to make a change alone. But IF one person would say this in a day , imagine how many billions of people who are just like me, are not contributing anything to make the world a better place to live.

What i can do for my Earth is not much but if everyone is doing it then it would be a lot. I have stop using plastic bags. I carry shopping bags in my handbag whenever i go.

Don't blow it - good planets are hard to find.

Do you know Every year, more than 500 billion plastic bags are distributed, and less than 3% of those bags are recycled. They are typically made of polyethylene and can take up to 1,000 years to biodegrade in landfills that emit harmful greenhouse gases. Reducing your contribution to plastic-bag pollution is as simple as using a cloth bag (or one made of biodegradable plant-based materials) instead of wasting plastic ones - Source from Just Say no to Plastic Bags

♫ Of the Moment : Metric - Waves

Let It Die

2011-10-01T00:24:00.007+08:00

The best thing about pictures are the moment captured and everything in the photo remain the same although in reality the people in it has changed..

There are things that we don’t want to happen but have to accept, things we don’t want to know but have to learn, and people we can’t live without but have to let go

I guess its true they say, we don't control fate , we don't have a choice with people we were destined to meet in life.. Last year on this day around this time was the day i met him which causes my major downfall this year. With no regret i have grown up and decided to free myself from the past.

I Fare thee well..

Let it die and get out of my mind
We don't see eye to eye
Or hear ear to ear

Don't you wish that we could forget that kiss
And see this for what it is
That we're not in love

The saddest part of a broken heart
Isn't the ending so much as the start

It was hard to tell just how I felt
To not recognize myself
I started to fade away

And after all it won't take long to fall in love
Now I know what I don't want
I learned that with you

The saddest part of a broken heart
Isn't the ending so much as the start
The tragedy starts from the very first spark
Losing your mind for the sake of your heart
The saddest part of a broken heart
Isn't the ending so much as the start '

Feist - Let It Die

In Hope of Escapism

2011-09-23T21:07:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i secretly wish that my life has more colors , so i can have more interesting stuff to write about. I wish i could have more adventure , or write about wonderful places i have been and great cities i have seen , but to be honest i am just an ordinary girl with dreams bigger than the sky. A dream to break away from the routine life , a dream to leave this city where its forever summer. A dream to wish that i will always have a dream.

But just because i don't get to see the world yet , it does not mean that i will sit and sulk and whine. What i can do now is to find magic at the most humble places , i hope to make the best out of the littlest things in life. In this post , i will share some of the photos i spent with my sisters during my last trip back home to my hometown. The little Island , Penang in Malaysia. I have always love the smell of the sea, in fact someday hopefully i will be rich enough to have a house with the view of an ocean. :)

A girl can always dream , can't she?

All photos are taken at this new chill out place , Straits Quay. in Penang

Its one of the best place to hang out , a lot of nice fancy restaurants around

And the best part is the view of the ocean which is breath taking,

Ps : Sorry to those who are new here , if u were to stick with me long enough you would know that i have been away from my Blog , I am not snobbish or think i am too good for anyone.
Sincere apology if i have missed out in replying any comments. I will try my best to write back to everyone as soon as possible and do leave me a link if i have missed out your blog ♥

And not forgetting to share my fav song from Twin Sister , i am just so addicted to it.

" If you forget it all , I will Bring it with me..
If You Can't Find the sea, i will bring you there "

The Best Friend , Coffee , Games & Me

2011-09-10T10:20:00.006+08:00

You know when they say communication brings people closer together, I don’t think its happening nowadays. The problem with the world today If You Ever Noticed, or have u ever notice a group of friends or family sitting on a table together without actual interactions, everyone is just too busy playing with their gadgets. With the advanced technology in communication devices , everyone are just too into their Blackberries and I Phones or smart phones. Sad right , how people no longer have a decent meal together with laughter and good conversations.

Back to my post , me and my bestest friend in the whole wide world ( that’s how much I adore and love her ) hang out at this nice cozy little café in a local Mall in Penang. Although the coffee they serve is just average for my liking , I love how they have all this board games and books. We had the best time catching up with each other’s busy lives , playing Scrabble & Jenga. Its just so much fun and love. So here I will share some photos with you guys.

Board games are fun , people should play it more often. The first board game I ever own was a set of Monopoly my dad bought me when I was 8 when he came back to visit me and my sisters..

What’s your all time fav board game ?

Cutest Song ever , good Indonesian music :)

My heart stopped beating And when it stops it stops

2011-09-05T12:55:00.012+08:00

I find it kinda funny how I could write best when I am angry or upset. But I find it even funnier that I don’t feel a thing but I have so much in mind right now, I just feel like writing today. So here I am

Looking back at my old posts before I hit the delete button. I don’t know if I should laugh at my old self , the little angry teen who write endless emo posts , the love fool who writes with too much emotions or the hypocrite who try too hard to please everyone. I wear different masks around different people every day. I could not explain how my heart and head were at war , so much contradictions in what I say and what I do.

As much as I wish to be the girl with the golden heart , as much as I wish I could be as kind as I once were years ago. I have changed , people changed for better or worse. We all know in life , we will be hurt , back stabbed by people who meant the world to us. If it’s a broken arm , leg or bone , its gonna hurt but it will heal. People who are broken inside sometimes are the happiest people on the outside , we cover our pain with smiles and laughter. How to recover from all the hurting? I guess I have no idea. Even the heart of gold can turn as cold as stone if it has been wounded for way too many time. I know some people will say yeah big deal , why can’t she grow up and stop being so pathetic. Well tell me about it when u know how it feels like to be crying at night wishing you can sleep so your mind will stop working , and when u wake up in the morning u wish u could crawl back to bed again. I went through that for the past months.
I’ve been living my life half asleep.
And again , this is my personal blog , I may rant all I want.

I like building wall around my world. I feel safer this way. I tear it down once or twice and realize it was the biggest mistake so I built it higher and higher. People who care enough will find a way to knock it down, people who don’t will just give up after a few try. And in the end If I keep on allowing myself to be defeated by my own insecurity and lack of trust in people, I know might end up hurting people who actually care and I might end up pushing them away.

I only believe in if a person wants to be in my life , then its going to be a lot of hard work and effort to fight to be in it. Its not the first time people gave up on me , I guess I am pretty numb to it by now.

"You said I began
This messy state of love affair
And I drink too much and smoke too fast
And this city's cleared my innocence
And I laugh out loud
My life is a mess
I have gone too far
In my lifelessness "

Can money pay for all the days I lived awake

2011-06-30T20:37:00.004+08:00

I remember when i was a kid , Birthday used to be so much fun , although i don't grow up like those rich kids u watched on MTV Sweet Sixteen with major bash , fancy car as present , and the whole school attend the biggest party in town.

As i grow up , birthday is just another day. It does not thrill me much anymore. Past years i would be more than happy if its just dinner or a day out with family and friends. But somehow this year , i thought of spending it with my close ones. I have been feeling empty lately and i find life so tiring. You wake up and its like a routine life. Friends are living in different cities. I hate the feeling of being alone..I just need companion , because its so tough for me that he is so far , so the only people i could think of to spend my day with are my best friends.

2 weeks ago , excitingly i started planning a party for myself , searching for nice place to hang out , and i thought of inviting few of the closest friends to go out at night , grab a few drinks and have fun instead of being miserable. My sisters could not be here because they have college.Its like 1 more day to my Birthday, and most of my friends could not make it either. I even bought three dresses that thought i would wear this year.Maybe its not such a big deal or i am being way too emotional but somehow its pretty disappointing , i did not want to lie , i cried last night because i felt like there is no one I could rely on. How pathetic it is to have to plan your own party with a list of invited ' close friends' who does not even care much.

People who are not close to me thinks that my birthday this year is gonna be the the 'It' event.Everyone is asking how am i gonna celebrate my birthday this year , i am so ashamed to tell them that i am not gonna do anything this year. With social network like Facebook , everyone will just bloody wish u by writing on your wall. I got so pissed i locked my Facebook wall today because i know by tomorrow the Birthday reminder will be on. And all those pretentious people will just write something stupid which they don't mean it.

If someone would ask me what i want this year , i would simply answer All i want is to feel happy again.

Ps - Sorry loves , my comeback post was suppose to be something more interesting and not my melancholy whining.

♫ Of the Moment : Primitives Radio God - Standing Outside a Broken Phone Booth with money in my hand.

And the city i walk in ..i feel like a shadow

2011-05-19T23:47:00.004+08:00

I wish i could gain back my passion when i started my blog...
I know i have been playing hide and seek with my readers
One minute i am here , gone in the next

I lost so many followers , sometimes i wonder do people follow your blog because they like your style of writing or they follow just to get you to follow them back. And when u dont they unfollow you :)
So i wont take it personally when people left , i will use it as motivation to write better.
But as i always say , i am still very grateful for the all the friends i've made through my blog
I try my best to keep in touch with everyone in Twitter or Facebook.

As for the outfit , i love this dress so much but some of my friends jokingly says that it look like a maternity dress lol . And i am obsessed with pearls , although mine are fakes.
I just adores them

Bought all this from DIVA

One of the best thing to happen is to receive a blog award even when i have been away
That's the best feeling ever , to be remembered and i truly felt appreciated

Hugs and kisses to Laura from Artfully Artista

Thank u so much for the award , u motivates me to make a come back ♥

Warpaint- Shadows

L'heure avait sonné - The Time has Come

2011-04-22T11:44:00.001+08:00

April has been kind I guess , time does heal wound , and with the love and support from my friends I have start to find peace in heart and in mind.

I remember days when I don’t feel like getting out of bed , I whined about every single thing , I cry over the littlest things. Then something struck me , I felt pathetic , vulnerable and I have became this annoying little freak who complains about the same old drama over and over again. Then I stop , I start going out more often with my girlfriends , partying , shopping , laughing about silly stuff , flirt a little and I felt good again. These are the things I have should done long time ago.

So to all those who are going through a downfall in failed relationships . Trust me the sooner u start to walk away from the past , the happier u will be. Don’t waste a single second crying over someone who will not wipe your tears. And please shut away all sad songs , No Damien Rice , No Racheal Yamagata , No The National , all are no no’s just tune up some kick ass girl power songs. Thanks to all my readers for your kind words , and one of the really really good friends was Susuana She's really a sweetheart and we still keep in touch a lot even when I was away from my blog.

A Big shout out to all friends who will be celebrating Easter Day , i wish u love

Through timeless words and Priceless Pictures

2011-03-03T20:08:00.001+08:00

''If you do not breathe through writing , if you do not cry out in writing , or sing in writing, then don't write , because our culture has no use for it '' - Anaiss Nin

What inspires you to write ?

Love ? Life ? Anger ? Hatred?

I write when i felt the world could not understand me . I write because i believe through words i calm the whirlwind in my head. Through words i cry out the tears that people around don't see . Through words i sing songs when my voice could not be heard. Through words i find escapism in reality , through words we find magic together.

I am not a great writer , i don't write for money , i don't write for your pleasure. I am an amateur photographer and a indie queen.

I am Jasmine .. Thanks for all the readers who choose to stay and hello to all the new friends i've made.

Happy Birthday Veronica

2011-03-01T18:15:00.002+08:00

I don't really feel like writing , I guess my readers will know the reason why.
So i'll just share some photos of my good friend Veronica's Birthday dinner :)

And may everyone have a wonderful month , its 1st of March ...

♫ Of the Moment : Dan Mangan - The Indie Queens Are Waiting

Gerye Nakon ( Dont Cry )

2011-02-15T14:49:00.005+08:00

We both cried before u left , Today u told me there is no point of us being together because we live so far apart and u don't want me to suffer without you. Its so sad that u gave up on us when i have not give up on u not even once. You said this is life , and this is destiny . Then i tell u now its fate that bring us together , and destiny is in our hands , we can choose to defy it but u have made a choice to let me go without even trying.

Each night before we go to bed , u will ask me how much do i love u. I am not smart , maths cant do the calculation , Science can give me a logical answer , art cant paint my feelings but i love u more than myself. You are my heartbeat. Is that not enough for u?

I turned my back against the world to be with you , now the world is laughing at me because they said i told u so

I will miss your dimple when you smile , your brown eyes , the time u made me soup in the middle of the night when i was sick , the mornings when we woke up and brush our teeth together , the time when u stood in front me when we are waiting for the train so other boys wont look at me , your face when i saw u cried for the first time.

You make me believe i am beautiful even when i have messy hair , with no make up on and my eyes are fill with tears.

I am clumsy , i always tripped and fall , i bumped into things , i dropped everything , i like to walk around the house with wet feet , u say at times i can be so stupid , u said i was childish because everytime we fight, i close my eyes and wont look at u when u are trying to talk to me.

Where do we go from here?

Your brown eyes are my blue skies.

2011-02-14T09:03:00.003+08:00

''I Carry your heart with me ( I carry it in my heart ) i am never without it , anywhere i go you go'' - E.E Cummings

I did not mention in my last post , he went to Canada to further his studies Last Monday ,

7th February 2011 .. Love once again has tear us apart..

Was on Skype with him the other day , God knows how much i misses him . The weather in Toronto is really cold , he is trying to adapt with the changes and learning about his new place. School is going to start soon , i was so worried , before he left i was having a bad cold and seems like he got it from me. As we chatted i was crying , and somehow ironically he knew . He asked me am i crying , i said NO..he knew i was lying. I did not want him to worry because i want him to move on , he has a new life there, new faces to meet , and most probably he will meet someone new soon. Inside me i am dying , it was hard enough to be so far away from him , i could not touch him or hug him. He said he it was hard for him too but he wont show it to me because he knows i will cry. He knows i have not been sleeping for the past few days , why am i being so childish.

He was showing me his sandwich , and he spilled ketchup all over his hand.
My little boy , how could i not worry about you ?

Its hard to act tough , i am falling apart . Days goes on , life seems the same. Every morning when i wake up i look at the sky , and wonders what is he doing , the time difference is really crazy. Under the same sky , but miles and miles apart. I told him not to worry about me , because he is in my heart , so he is always near to me. He asked me if i like snow , he showed me the view from his condo.

Well if things were meant to be , i might give up everything in Malaysia to be with him.

Its too early to decide now ...if he found someone better i will let him go with an open heart.

''Can you help me?
Can you let me go
And can you still love me
When you can't see me anymore''

♫ Of the Moment : KT Tunstall - Other Side of the World

You came like a Thief in the night and stole my World and my Heart

2011-02-12T16:17:00.014+08:00

If u read my older posts , i've just realize that for the past months He was mention in my every post , from the first night i met him to our first date , and till we got together..Then i abandoned my blog, the real reason i stop writing was things has been high and low for me , there is a period of time when i was completely uninspired to write..I was always crying , i was covered in shells , i lose my smile my laughter , i was a complete mess.

Well this is our love story , I met Him in 1st October 2010 during my bestie's boyfriend's Farewell party , a crazy night out in a club with my friends. I normally dont talk to strangers in club especially boys. From my table i saw him dancing with another girl , and i thought to myself wow he's taken , he look over and i smiled and he smiled back. Then i had my time with my friends and he had his. In the end of the night , my friend was not feeling well she actually threw up in the beer bucket , and then out of a sudden he walked over and said Hi , we exchanged numbers and the rest is history.

To be honest , i could not really remember his face haha but one thing i remember was his dimple when he smiles. We texted each other for almost 2 weeks before i decide to go out for an official first date. Well the first date , 17th October was nerve wrecking.I was wondering if he stills remember my face , i wonder if he will like me for who i am , i almost bailed out last minute because i was so nervous. Everything went well , we chilled at Starbucks for few hours , talking and that day he hold my hand for the first time. Before he left , he wanted to kiss me but i avoided then as he was walking away i pulled him back and kiss him on his cheek. He didn't know i was jumping like a monkey , like a kid saying it out loud to my girl friends about how happy i am. I was glowing and i am smiling most of the time. I played hard to get , i was mean i always start a fight over the littlest things. I did not tell him how much i love , because i was afraid to fall.

But during the first month when we were together , i was really insecure as he does not have time for me , at first i thought i was being over paranoid , i wrote this post . Friends and readers told me not to worry too much. But in the end , all the things that i suspected came true , he indeed was seeing someone else. I was sharing my boyfriend with another girl , or maybe more than one girl.It was a long story but its the past now.

He was Persian , he was studying here in Malaysia .Everyone told me we wont have a future together,as we shared so much difference in our religion ( although i am a free thinker ) , culture and he was so much younger than me. All my friends begs me to leave him as they see me suffer holding on. But i was stubborn , i did not want to give up trying.

He went back to Iran for 3 weeks in November , I only realized i was completely in love with him when he was away. My world crumble , and it was a rough time for me . I cried at almost everyday , waiting for his call , waiting to see him online..That was the worst time of my life , he came back in December and did not tell me. Dont ask me how i found out , i had my ways..Then just before Christmas ends , he called me up...and recently he confessed that he did not want to tell me he was back in Malaysia because he knew he wont stay here for long , he wants me to leave him as he knows i was good. Before he met me , he never really wants to get involve in a serious relationship , he admits he was a big time player , and when he realized i am different with the girls he dated , he did not want to hurt me.But he said he might make a mistake by calling me , but he could not help it , he misses me.

We got back together , things are going so well ..i forgave him about Her..but sometimes the thoughts of him cheating was burning in the back of my head, it hurts me but to love someone is to love his good and bad. People ask me why do i choose to stay ? What do i see in him..

All i can say is is i am glad i did not listen , i played my part , i loved him with all my heart , the tears i shed was all worth it. After 5 months We are still together now , stronger and somehow i knew i have won his heart. But no matter what happens tomorrow i am prepared for the worst but i prayed every single day for the best.

I will write more in my next post ..

PS : please excuse me for pouring my heart in this extremely long and dull post..

''It's nice to say that we played in the dirt
'Cause here we are.......

Through timeless words and priceless pictures
We'll fly like birds not of this earth
And tides they turn and hearts disfigure
But that's no concern when we're wounded together

And we tore our dresses and stained our shirts

But it's nice today. Oh, the wait was so worth it...''

♫ Of the Moment : Jason Mraz - A Beautiful Mess

Forget me Not

2011-01-22T00:51:00.002+08:00

Hello loves ,

It felt so weird to be writing again as i have abandoned my blog for the past months , Lost a few followers when i am away.At the same time gained some new ones , I wonder if i am forgotten too by so many of my dear friends and writer. What inspires me to write again is emails , and all the comments received , well thank you, your words makes me want to write again.

Well i am back for good , i have been covered in shells for far too long , life has been high and low. WHAT HAVE I MISSED? EVERYTHING !

So i'll keep this a really short one , as i cant wait to read everyone's updates and check out my new readers , reply comments and say Hi to everyone again ! GOSH its a little too late but Happy New Year girls. Please Please Please drop by and say HI , cant wait to hear from everyone ♥

Miss you guys ! Hugs and Kisses !!

♪ But when you give me love
When you give me love

I have no fear of heights

No fear of the deep blue sea,
Although it could drown me

I know it could drown me

♫ Of the Moment :Katie Melua - No Fear of Heights

And it Hurts with Every Heartbeat

2010-11-02T10:06:00.002+08:00

Meet my 19 year old boyfriend

Ya i know what people will say , he is way too young
And what? u met him in the club?

Whats in your head Jasmine?

Relationship is still scary , I am a selfish bitch who wants things to go my way
I hate commitments but i want my boyfriend to fully commit himself to me
The fact that i have became so paranoid lately is really killing everything

This week he have been really busy with his studies , exam is coming soon
He still texts me everyday , but i felt that it wasn't enough , i want more
And he says i am fucking with his brains because every now and then i will throw tantrum like a kid
And he cant concentrate on his studies because of me..

But i think i have issue when it comes to trust
I only get to see him in the weekend , because weekdays he has class and i have to work
Is it enough for you?
To only get to see your boyfriend once in a week
I thought the beginning is always the best part , its all about the thrills , and butterflies in the stomach
When he tells me he in class or at night when he tell me he has tuition or he is studying
My mind is telling me he is lying , he is with someone else

I think i am really fucked up which is why i hate to be in a relationship

♫ Of the Moment : Robyn - With HeartBeat

Sweet Like Candy

2010-10-21T22:13:00.003+08:00

Sorry for my lack of post , its just that i don't have anything inspiring to write lately , plus coming home from work i just felt exhausted, uninspired , and mentally drained
Its good to get away from the computer for a while ..

I do not want to write just for the sake up updating my blog.

I promise i will be more committed to my blog.

I just need some time off ..hope you guys understand..
I will be back and i will check out all the links exchange and reply comments and drop by my new follower's page soon..

And i did not have any new outfit post , i'll just share some sweetness with my readers

I love candy stores ,
i never really fancy sweet stuff but i just like to walk in and look at all the colors , shapes and the happy faces on children

What is your favorite Candy?

Mine is Gummy Bears , red ones especially :)

♫ Of the Moment : Brooke Fraser - Something In The Water
( this song makes me smile during a bad day )

If i am Ugly then so are you

2010-10-17T01:12:00.001+08:00

Have u ever wake up and feel like smashing the mirror so you wont have to see your reflection ?

Have u ever walk with your head high just to have something say something bad behind your back
and made you feel like you're the ugliest creature on earth?

Have u ever starve yourself so you can live up to someone else's expectations ?

Have u thought of going under the knife so u can look like the models on magazines?

Have u ever being made fun of because of your difference ? In skin color / weight / shape or height

Seriously who are they to tell us what is beautiful and what is not

All of us went through that and i think its really ugly to make others feel bad about themselves..

To all women out there ,

You are beautiful and never let anyone makes u feel the opposite

♫ Of the Moment : Sugababes - Ugly

Hello ! I am BACK

2010-10-12T22:03:00.003+08:00

Gosh my blog has been dead for 4 days. I've just reach home yesterday. Finally i can have time to laze in front of my desktop and write a short update.

Trip back home was good. Time was not enough for me to see everyone . But i manage to meet up with one of my best guy friend Gino. He sat behind me in class when we were 18. Funny how people always say there is no way a boy and girl can remain as best friends.

Such thing does not exist , WELL HEY LOOK AT US !

We live for together for almost a year back in 2008 , and he is one the people who truly sees and accept the UGLY side of me lol . He tolerate my bad temper and of course we fight and i have said the meanest thing that i wish i could take it back. But i am just glad we can still be comfortable in our skin and yet remain the best of friends ever.

He is gonna kill me if he sees this candid shot lol

As for the outfit My dress and my first pair of Brogues ( OH YES ) are from Cotton ON
Head band from Forever 21
And bag from a local store

PS: I will check out everyone's update by tomorrow , i want to jump on my bed and sleep right now

♫ Of the Moment :Florence and theMachine : Dog Days Are Over

Check out her new official video remake for this song , AWESOME !

One Last Note Before I Go

2010-10-06T20:44:00.005+08:00

Hi girls , Thank u so much everyone for your advise on the DSLR . Cross fingers that i can make up my mind soon and get the perfect one. And as for the boy , i am going on a date with him next Saturday , because he has class and i have to work and despite staying in the same city his place is pretty far from mine so we don't have the chance to meet up this week. But he text me EVERYDAY , all the time which is really sweet. I am not jumping into any serious relationship yet , well we shall see how things goes. I will update everyone if i have good news lol.

By the way this will be my last post for this week. I wont be around for 4 days. I will be out of town , and please excuse me if i am a little slow in checking your comments. I will be back by Monday , i know i am going to missed out a lot of blog updates during the weekend. :(
Will check out your post as soon as i am home

I will miss everyone especially all my readers ,Wait for me please !

Just a short update and some random photos i took , scroll down for magic ♥

One last thing before i sign off ,

Sharing my new found love Coffee and a Cardigan

Love you girls , Thank for all your support and your words meant a lot to me

And the sweet sweet sun's comin' down hard , The sun's comin' down hard

2010-10-03T10:40:00.006+08:00

Pinch me its October already ? Goodbye September, did anything interesting during the weekend?

I went partying with my girlfriends on Friday Night , threw up like crazy at home.
Woke up with a hang over the next morning , rush to another friend's registration of marriage then slept my whole Saturday away . It was CRAZY , by the way i met a boy in the club will tell u girls about it the next time. I can feel the tingles on my back.

Anyway I need some advise from you guys
As you see i promised myself that i will try to come up with better photos
So after months of surveying and inquiring i am planning to get a DLSR

Cropped Oversized shirt :Local Store
High Waist Grey Skirt : Cotton On
Silver Pumps : Vincci
Bag : Vintage

What do you guys think about Canon EOS - 1000D?
Or you have any recommendations for a beginner like me

♫ Of the Moment : The Temper Trap : Fader

Love will Tear Us Apart Again

2010-09-28T20:50:00.014+08:00

Growing up in a broken family , i have nothing much to write about my parent's love story. I mean they had their time , people change and i still hate my dad for leaving us.

I spent most of my time with my grandparents, from sleeping in the middle of their bed with them when i am little . I am always the apple in my grandfather's eye, spoiled to death by him.

Funny people often think i uses Ithisingkarn as a glamor name , but no i did not .
Ithisingkarn is my late grandfather's name in Thai. I don't see the point of using my dad's family name when basically this person has never been there for me.

My grandfather is a Thai student from Bangkok who came to Penang Island , Malaysia to study. He came with a group of friends and they rented a room in ( now our heritage house in Penang ). My grandmother's mother was a widow with 5 children to raise. Her husband my great grandfather was a wealthy businessmen who died at a very young age leaving her with 5 children to raise. My great grandmother work as a seamstress , all the women in my family including my grandma can work magic on the sewing machine except us ( the new generation including my mum ) .

I adores her beautiful wedding dress made of lace , someday if i ever get married i would want my dress to be exactly like hers

In my hometown Penang is where my Grandpa met my Grandma

My grandma is a beautiful yet so stubborn and head strong.

She told us back then she have many suitors, there is one who work as a pilot, one was my Grandfather's best friend who is a rich man's son from Bangkok,and jokingly she will always say she must have been blind to choose a poor man like my Grandfather.

I love listening to her stories because back then not every girl is lucky enough to have the chance to be with someone they love.

During her time , most of the girls are married to men they have not seen before , it was always the arranged marriage by their parents.
But back then people understand and respect the value of marriage not like the young people nowadays.

They Fell in love just like a fairy tale But God did not give them the chance to grow old together. I lost my grandfather in December 2008 , my grandma was so heart broken she passed away few months after him.....

When 2 hearts beats as one , till death do them part

Every time i see an old couple holding hands on the street, i secretly pray that my
Grandparents is in somewhere better , Together.

In Loving memory

♪ Next door there's an old man who lived to his nineties
And one day passed away in his sleep
And his wife; she stayed for a couple of days
And passed away...

i cried when i heard this song, because God knows how much it reminds me of them

♫ Of the Moment : Ben Folds Five- The Luckiest

The Jill of All Trades and Mistresses of None

2010-09-26T18:29:00.007+08:00

When i was seventeen my English Teacher said ' Jasmine don't be a Jack of All Trades Master of None. Which i still think i am ..I have a gift , which is to draw , i love to draw , i wish i can work magic on a paper but sadly i cant. I am looking forward to learn everything starting from basic.

I also wish to learn to sew , wearing clothes that i made sounds pretty awesome too me. I envy those who has so much talent to make creative DIY pieces and clothes.
I am in between size 12-14 , YES BELIEVE IT.

In Malaysia most of the clothes , design are meant size S - M , most of the stuff i like does not come in my size. Sometimes its so frustrated to walk in a store to see clothes that look like as if they were made for anorexic victims, no offends to anyone who is naturally petite and slim.

And labels or store from Overseas like Forever 21 , Miss Selfridge and Dorothy Perkins does have my size but to be honest i find most of the stuff pretty pricey for me.

Don't even make me start with shoes , its such a pain to hunt for the perfect shoe which come in my size.

So tell me girls , if you have the time and money what would u wish u can learn?

Here is my humble list

Sewing - I want to make my own dresses
Acoustic Guitar - For my passion for music
Baking - Make cakes , cupcakes , muffins and bread , the thought itself made me smile
French - I always find the language very sexy :)
Photography - Would love to know everything about manual and film cameras

I am saving up for this baby , Olympus EPL-1

Girls sorry for my lack of time spend with my blog, will drop by to say Hi to everyone soon.
Got to rush out for my bestie's birthday dinner
Have a happy Sunday everyone
Can't wait to hear from you ♥

♫ Of the Moment : The Mamas & The Papas - Dream a Little Dream of Me

Sigur Ros - Glósóli

2010-09-23T21:03:00.002+08:00

I wanted to write a post today , but i left my hard disk with all my photos in it back in the office :(
Till then , may u feel magic in this song just like i do

So beautiful , it almost made me cry

Au Revoir Sunday

2010-09-19T23:13:00.003+08:00

How's everyone's weekend ?

I think i am now the happiest broke & penny less girl in town .
I kinda critically over spent this month , every where i go there is SALE sign hanging.
And me i can never resist buying stuff i don't need.
Gosh sometimes i feel that i am slowly turning into a shopaholic.

But lucky i am not that person who is crazy about labels.
Well labels are just labels to me , honestly i am still young and underpaid so i can hardly afford it.
I don't understand people who rather starve just to wear / use expensive labels

Is it worth to go that extreme?
I have mutual friends who think that by wearing labels it makes them more superior than others.
Well to me its kind of a show off which is unnecessary.
Because behind all the so called glamor is a long statement of credit card bills from the bank.

AS for me
Mum says i should cut down on buying shoes and clothes as i already have ENOUGH in my closet.

But as i always say
Enough is never ENOUGH for a girl

Anyway i am pretty stuck with this song right now :)

♪ The sky is way bigger than I ever thought it could be
I really can't see where it ends
Clouds like bubbles in a sink touching my face
Makes me forget how to think

FriYAY - My Third Award from Three Awesome Writers

2010-09-17T21:53:00.007+08:00

Hi girls , sorry i have been a little lazy to update my blog . Because spending 8 hours in the office doing paper work ,typing reports and dealing with difficult clients totally worn me out. Sometimes i wish i have nicer things to write , more interesting things which is happening in life but sadly i have none. I have tried my best to stay true to myself through my writing.

The other day someone said i must have been so happy to gained new followers from time to time..well..to be honest i know by heart who are the people who really read and loves my blog just the way it is. Its not the matter of how many followers i have. Because a blog may have 1000 followers but if only 100 are real readers who took the time and effort to really read a post , then i really don't see the point

Anyway i am still very thankful to all those who supported me .I will try my best to reply everyone's comment sorry if i have missed out any.

Recently i have received my very Third award from 3 wonderful writers

Do Check out their blogs , you wouldn't want to miss them out

This may sound cliche' but honestly i am so happy i can jump on my desk and dance now lol
I feel loved and appreciated

I know most of the blogs i love already received this award,
My last tagged post i have tagged 12 girl friends
So this time around i would like to share to love for the girls i missed out

Therefore i would love to pass this award to a long long list of people whom i love

Joe of Joe's Blog

Nicole of Coco Maria
Darling L of Old Words And Vanilla Tea

Lulu of Lulu and the Locket

Gee of Sock Monkey & Gee

Krystal of Sunday Photo

Isadora Filković Of Fantastique Memoires from Outer Space

Becca of Becca's Daydreams

Emma of CircusBox

Marguerite Gisele of MARGUERITEGISELE

Carina of Bad Taste Toast

Abi Of Style Bouquet

Amanda Lynn of Amanda Lynn?

Rebecca of Its Cohen

Polly of The Littlest Polly

Lucy of Produtinhos No Cabelo

The Mad Twins

CDG of A Grunge Fairytale

Lucy of Dear Fish

Yrmngldhrt of Wie das Leben so spielt.

Barbara of Hello I'm Nice & Hello I'm Analog

Matt of A Different Sort of Fashionista

Lands of Dreams

SignePling

P/s I was suppose to pass to 12 bloggers only but since i have received one award from 3 bloggers i figure that its oh kay to tagged more than 12 friends

Here are the rules of the award:

1) Save the image above and post it to your own blog
2) Pass the award on to 12 fellow bloggers
3) Link the nominees
4) Let nominees know they have won this award by commenting on their blog
5) Share the love and link to the person you received this award from.

I promise i will come out with a new list of new friends the next time i receive an award

Come out and Play the Tagging Game

2010-09-12T20:59:00.009+08:00

Like i say reading tagged posts is really fun because it allow the readers to know more about the writers. I am Tagged today by the beautiful Harlow Darling the writer of Elegantly Wasted. Thank you :)

YAY YAY

The Rules are:

Post who have you this award

State 10 things you like

Pass this to 10 other bloggers you like

10 Things I ♥

1.Music : You'll think i am insane if u know how much i love music. I don't sing , i can't dance and the only instrument i play is a Tambourine , but i can't survive a day without music.

Can u imagine watching an empty sky with no clouds , birds or sun?
Life has less colors without music.

2.Photography : ''Photography is not about cameras, gadgets and gismos. Photography is about photographers. A camera didn't make a great picture any more than a typewriter wrote a great novel'' - Peter Adams

3.Food : Good food , junk food, fast food, sweat stuff , u name it I 'll eat it

4.Books : I love the smell of old books , the best thing about buying books from a second hand store is sometimes if you are lucky u might get books that has the name or notes written in it from the old owner. That person might be dead or god knows where they are now . But the feeling of knowing we are sharing the same love for that particular book is magic.

5.My Mum : Being raised by a single wonderful mum is the best gift of life

6.Joseph Gordon Levitt : My God , i am shamelessly having a major crush on him.

MARRY ME JOSEPH

7.Bakeries : I love to walk in a bakery and smell fresh baked bread , its delightful to look at all it too

8.Thai Food : I simply cant get enough of it, i like everything spicy , sweet and sour

9.Clothes / Shoes & Bags : Enough is NEVER Enough

10.Languages & Culture : I adores and wish to experience all kind of cultures of all my friends around the world. God made everyone unique in their own ways , so Please Stop Racism today

I hereby tagged You , You & YOU

Darling L from Old Words and Vanilla Tea
SusuanaLovesYou
A+B in The Sea
Amber Rose from Laughing With Broken Eyes
Marisa from Shades of Monet
Amy from Forever Curiouser
Rio from Showers of Sunflowers
Amber Blue Bird
Daniela from 1st Day of Spring
Booga from Booga Zes

I Swear i have a lot more names in my mind.
I love everyone
How I wish i could tag at least 50 Writers :(

FriYAY : Eat Sleep Write Love

2010-09-10T22:09:00.006+08:00

Today is Friday and i am not working because its a public holiday in my country.
Selamat Hari Raya to all my Muslim friends out there in Malaysia and countries all over the world
I spent half day sleeping , Finally.
Now awake with a major headache with too much sleep.
Thanks to everyone's concern in my last post, i am glad Mr Cold did come knocking.

I have reached 200 Readers today ,
I am where i am today because of all the love and support from you girls

♪ Cast about the night with your hands
And space the space inside of our heads
And when the fighting fighter inside
With all the thrilling I hide

♫ Of the Moment : Eisley - If You're Wondering

Raindrops are falling on my head but that doesn't mean that i am Dead

2010-09-08T21:33:00.012+08:00

Rain Rain Go Away , i used to love the rain especially in the afternoon , and i would sit by the window and watch the rain drops and slides down the glass , its almost like crystal fireworks.

It was pouring so heavily earlier and my new shoe is completely soaked , I am going to bed super early today because i can sense that my immune system is failing .

Hello body prepare to be sick :(

Songs To Listen in The Rain

The songs i listed Does not have the word Rain related to it.
Its the mood , the lyrics which i can relate to , most of all the music

Anya Marina : Satellite Heart
Keren Ann : Not Going Anywhere
Fiona Apple : Across The Universe
SIA : Electric Bird
Rachael Yamagata : Elephant
Exploration : Coraline Soundtrack
Patrick Watson : The Great Escape
She & Him : Please Please Let me get what i want ( The Smith Cover)
Kings Of Convenience : Cayman Island
Damien Rice : The Blower's Daughter
Jonna Lee : Human ( The Killers Cover)
Bjork : Unravel
Pete Droge : Small Time Blues ( Almost Famous Ost )
Gary Jules : Mad Word

Air : Playground Love

Its ok to cry in the rain.. Because nobody can tell if its rain or tears

Let’s pretend we don't exist Lets pretend we're in Antartica

2010-09-06T21:24:00.003+08:00

I never like formal clothes because i think that typical corporate look are super boring. Plus shirts and knee length skirt are so yesterday. I normally don't wear office attire like this , i wear it only one the first few day of the week because people assume that Monday should be formal attire day.

I wish i could have higher resolution photos to show the details of my outfits , please be patient. Cause i am saving money in my piggy bank to get a better camera.My outfit of the day is a one piece dress. A lot of people asked me if its two piece , the answer is no. I love the sheer fabric of the top , its very comfortable.

My hair is finally long enough to tie a bun :)

To all those who hates Monday as much as i do , lets listen to some happy tune

♪ Let’s have bizarre celebrations
Let’s forget who forget what forget where
We’ll have bizarre celebrations
I’ll play the Satyr in Cypris you the bride being stripped bare

Let’s pretend we don’t exist
Let’s pretend we’re in Antartica

Let’s have bizarre celebrations
Lets forget when forget what forget how
We’ll have bizarre celebrations
We’ll play Tristan and Izolde but make sure I see white sails

Maybe I’ll never die
I’ll just keep growing younger with you
And you’ll grow younger too
now it seems too lovely to be true
but I know the best things always do

♫ Of the Moment : Of Montreal - Wraith Pined to The Mist

Sometimes I've believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast

2010-09-05T02:44:00.001+08:00

Writing about breakfast when its 2.27 in the morning is pretty bizarre.
But like seriously good breakfast makes me happy :)
The best thing to start my day

Me and my mum had a great time at Janis's place
Cooking together is pretty fun

Please count your blessings instead of calories
Eat , Enjoy and be Grateful
Because there are others who wish they have food on their table.
I am blessed and i pray there wont be starvation in this world

♫ Of the Moment : First Aid Kit - You Are Not Coming Home Tonight( their music is on heavy rotation in my player right now , beautiful songs )

No Autumn for Me

2010-09-01T23:01:00.010+08:00

Hi Girls ,

September is finally here.
I've read so many exciting posts about Fall ,
and checked out so many amazing outfits , and shoes and wishlist.

But in Malaysia its forever summer .
The weather is so hot , i can hardly pull off a nice pair of jacket.

Good thing is i don't have to end up broke to change my wardrobe according to the seasons ,
Bad thing is , i really do wish to experience all 4 seasons.
I wonder how it feels like..

Anyways i got my polka dot dress from Cotton On.
But i got my dress in a hurry and i bought the wrong size without trying it on.
So it ends up a little too big for me .
Lucky me there is always waist belt to save the day.

I have a lot of things in mind to write but till then , this will be just a short update.
Work today has drained me up mentally.

♫ Of the Moment : First Aid Kit - Tiger Mountain Peasant Song ( Fleet Foxes Cover)

Their cover of this song is so beautiful

And The Boys

2010-09-01T01:46:00.005+08:00

♪ And there's gold falling from the ceiling of this world
falling from the heartbeat of this girl
falling from the things we should have learned
falling from the things we could have heard

falling from the people that we hurt
falling from the love we never earned
falling from the sky that should have burned
falling from my heart..

Its 1:47 am here , and i have to get up at 6am later , bonkersFirst post for September , gosh i just ♥ Angus & Julia Stone

Its Monday , lets make new friends

2010-08-30T08:32:00.004+08:00

Introducing a new friend Samantha the writer of Argyle Owl
Another awesome blog which i would love to share with everyone.
To start She loves everything vintage so she show people how to make vintage a modern and cutesy part of their wardrobe through her 'Style Thursday' .
She is also a cat lover and has the cutest kitten named Guacamole.

And her DIY cute stuff , you totally have to check it out, she is so creative in making handcraft.

She paints too !

Here is my little interview with the amazing girl

1.What Inspire you to start Argyle Owl?

I decided to start Argyle Owl after reading all these inspiring blogs, fashion, art, life. It all just made me want to get out of the waiting room you know? Start something I really care for and share it with everyone possible.

2.What are u listening to right now?

Right now I'm listening to the air conditioner and I'm freezing, hahha. But I have been listening to this band called Horse Feathers, I love them!

3.You're so talented in making craft , do share with us how can we check out your work?
Well I just made my mown Etsy.com shop. I'm waiting for a model so I can list my items then it should all be up and running!

http://www.etsy.com/shop/argyleowl

Have a Happy Monday everyone , a great new start for a brand new week

I wish you were a Stranger , I Can Disengage

2010-08-26T17:54:00.006+08:00

I wish love is a simple as a song that ends with a happy ending like the chick flicks we watch.

Of course its not as simple that.

We cant force people to have a change of heart ,
and loving someone does not make them loves us back.

But of cos, secretly every girl including me has a tiny hope that takes up the whole space of our heart , to wish that he at least knew.

I used to have this silly thoughts that

if you think of someone hard enough , he might feels it and it will make him think of me too.

I won't say i have lose all hopes when it comes to love but i've learned that if i cant get what i want , i should move on instead of asking myself What IF.

Friends still bugs me a lot of not having a new boyfriend, I have been single for almost 3 years now and if i don't see any problem with it then i think they should just cut me some slack.

Yes there is a boy that i like , and i am of course not the one for him.

''Your heart will only bleed for a person whose heart beats for someone else''

I don't think i am ready to jump into relationships yet. I don't need a spark i want fireworks.

Till the day when i finally found that person who can made my heart skipped a beat

I am Doing FINE alone.

♫ Of the Moment : Macy Gray - Dont Forget Me

Look Ma , No Shoes

2010-08-25T11:41:00.003+08:00

I used to have a thing for bright colors , so when i saw this fuchsia Somerset Bay dress on the rack , its a must get , its made of cotton so its extremely comfy , plus its on 80% sale , so i think the original price is RM100++ i cant really remember but after discount it cost less than RM20.

On Jesse , she's wearing a floral print dress that she got it for RM20 in a local mall. I like hers a lot , At first i plan to get the exact design in pink but i cant fit in cause the waist line is really small and on me the dress is way too short. I look like a giant trying to wear a 10 year old dress. So tough luck for me. But i think it fits perfectly on her as she is much skinnier than me.

I posterised the photo just for fun

The reason we are bare foot is because photos are taken in my Aunt's house .

Did you notice the chairs behind ? Its antique , its kitchen chairs from the 50's.

One last photo from the Vain J's , from left is my youngest sister Jolene , Jesse & Me

This morning while preparing to go work , i heard this catchy song playing on MTV

♫ Of the Moment : Professor Green Feat Lily Allen - Just be Good to Green

Goodbye Monday Blues

2010-08-23T11:10:00.014+08:00

Hi everyone , to those who really took the time and effort to read and comment on my posts , i sincerely thank you and i appreciates the support and love i received from you guys.

Just a brief introduction of Tragic Fairy Tales.
I am Jasmine, a regular girl from Malaysia who loves photography, arts , music and fashion. I started my blog back in 2007 , back then its really personal as this is the only place i can write down my thoughts , my feelings and most of all teen anger that in reality i find it hard to express to my friends and family.

Then one day i stumble upon Maria Confer from Lulu Letty and i was like Whoah this girl is amazing I want to be like her .She is my inspiration to transform my blog.

I don't write to get money for advertorials or sponsors. I write because i believe writing is a form of escape from my daily routine life. And through out blogging , i've met so many great independent writers and also made awesome friends along the way.

To be honest i felt thrilled and happy every time i see a new face in my follower column , then I became so obsessed and i hate myself for having that feeling.

I don't want to be pretentious .So from today onwards i will write without worrying if people will comment on my updates or how many new readers i will get.

I am now an official IFB member too :)

Last week i received my very first award from Joenna from Joe's Blog ,

She is a talented artist from Germany and also one of the most sincere friends i've made through blogging. Its worth dropping by at her page and look at her amazing paintings. Joe, Thank u so much for this.

Then i received my second award from Susuana -Susuana's Love,

A sweet young girl from UK who loves photography art and animation , we both loves Studio Ghibli's work a lot

So as a token of appreciation to both of them and all my readers , i 've made a simple Award that i dedicate especially to Joe and Susuana and also all my readers. I know most bloggers will made of list of names that they will pass the award to . But i don't want to miss out anyone's name because i have a long long list of great writers and blogs that i love. So in order to be fair i have decided to give an award to everyone.

* drums rolling *

Feel free to use it in your page because you girls deserves it ♥

Hope everyone's Monday Blues will go away and have a great week ahead

Last but not least ,Hello Kitty rose gold rings GIVEAWAY by Lolita's Life

This is the first time i participate in give aways, cross fingers cause the bow ring is so awesome

♫ Of the Moment : Stars - Ageless Beauty

Fri YAY : Malibu

2010-08-20T11:24:00.001+08:00

The last trip back my hometown.We have a new family member.

I am not sure what breed she is because my sister's friend gave her to them.

To be honest , i don't fancy having pets .

Not because i hate animals but its because i am aware that i am not a responsible owner.

They will be luckier to not have a owner like me.

A friend once said , once you got a pet. Its your commitment.

I adores people who takes good care of their pets. And i respect people who picks up strays and give them a home

I used to have a mini pincher , Akasha but she died of skin disease.

Then my friend gave ma chitzu , we name her Kiro.
He is the cutest thing ever.

But one day he got sick , he wont eat at all.

We brought him to the Vet hoping he will be gets better.

But i woke up the next morning just to see my sister crying next to the poor thing.
He died...

Anyways say hello to Little Malibu , my sisters named her after their fav drink Malibu Pineapple.

This will be my last update for this week. I wont be able to online during the weekends.

So see you girls next Monday.

A big shout out to all my new readers , Thank you so much !

Happy Fri YAYS♥

Outfit Of the Day

Dress : IamMe , RM30

Shoes : Cleef ,RM17.70
Ear rings : Flea Market , RM 6

♫ Of the Moment : Yuna - Decorate

Yuna is a talented artist from Malaysia , her acoustic music is awesome.

You May Say I am a Dreamer

2010-08-19T10:45:00.006+08:00

Remember back in Elementary school, our English teacher will ask us to write a short essay about ‘ Who do you want to be when your grow up’? Or normally in Malay the tittle will ‘ Apakah Cita Cita Anda’?

Now in the real world, how many of us actually scored our dream jobs?

Do you even remember the silly ambitions we wrote in our essay?

I remembered mine, when I was a kid I want to be a teacher, I want to be a flight attended so I can see the world.I want to be a police women cause the tv characters look so cool chasing crooks.

Then after watching Sailormoon, I had this crazy idea that I want to be a super female hero who saves the world.

In my teenage years, I want to be a fashion designer, a aspiring model, a graphic designer, a fashion writer

When I fell in love for the first time at 15 all I want is to be his Mrs.

But those are dreams I buried in a bottle many many years ago.

Like what my late grandma used to say, I am a person who loves Building Castles in the air

Now every time people ask me who do I do for a living, I wish I could answer I am a professional dreamer. Reality is I am a young adult who is working a 9-5 corporate job.
I do part time modeling sometimes when i receive offers.

Yes, Life has became a routine.

Its exhausting at times but i will not give up my dreams.
Which is to enroll myself in art school and save up so i can backpack around the world.

Outfit Of the Day

Dress : Cotton On
Vintage inspired Bag : Flea market

♪ Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life

♫ Of the Moment : Beatles - Black Bird

The J's came out to play

2010-08-17T15:48:00.002+08:00

I can never say NO to french fries, i mean i know fast food is bad for me but i cant resist it.

I live to eat not eat to live which explains all this excess weight.

Fun time chilling at MC Donald's with my sisters.

This is my youngest sister Jolene , she's gonna kill me if she knew i candid her

All 3 of us love burgers and fries A Lot

Ha ha i don't know why but i love to do this silly pose , its like

fries + vampire fangs + silliness = my lame pose

Miss them loads , Jesse and Jolene are twins by the way.

Both in their first year Art Foundation, next year they will major in fashion design.

♪ I cannot emphasise enough that my body
Is a badly designed, poorly put together vessel,
Harbouring these diminishing, so-called 'vital organs'
Hope my heart goes first,
I HOPE MY HEART GOES FIRST!

♫ Of the Moment : Los Campesinos ! - We are Beautiful We Are Doomed

Songs For Amber

2010-08-16T16:25:00.002+08:00

Say hello to my new friend Amber the beautiful writer of Laughing With Broken Eyes ,
do check her page out if you have not stumble into her blog yet.

She’s one of the nicest writer I’ve met and I simply adore her blog. And since both of us shares the same passion for music. I’ve compiled some songs that I really really like and dedicate it to her .

Dear Amber , you're a beautiful person with a great heart , don't stop chasing your dreams ♥

1.The Arcade Fire : Wake Up
2 .Couer De Pirate : Comme Des Enfants
3 Lykke Li – Dance Dance Dance
4.Sigur Ros : Goobledigook
5.The Owls : Air
6.John Lennon : Watching The Wheels
7.Travis : Flowers in the window
8.Karen O and the Kids : All is Love
9.Stars : Calender Girl
10.Jem : Its Amazing

11.Joni Mitchell : The Circle Game

12.Regina Spektor : Music Box

13.Passion Pit : Dreams ( The Cranberries cover )

14.Postal Service : Such Great Heights

15.Sweet Child O Mine : Taken By Trees

What is everyone's favorite track of the moment?

Fly me paper aeroplanes to tell me ya

Friday the 13th

2010-08-13T13:46:00.001+08:00

Anyone realize that today is Friday the 13th ? For me i am just happy it FriYAY.

It will be a busy weekend as i am finally moving into my new house. Still have a lot of packing to do.Mum jokingly says that i can open a thrift store will all my clothes and shoes.

Need to get rid of a lot of old clothes , so everything will go to charity.

I am sure there are people who needs it more than me.

And also shoes , goodbye my love

Now i am Flipping through Ikea's Catalogue to find ideas to decorate my new room.

I am so excited. Woo hoo

Hope everyone will have a wonderful weekend *wink*

♫ Of the Moment : Mrs Robinson - Simon and Garfunkel

What Doesn't Kills You Makes You Stronger

2010-08-13T11:02:00.000+08:00

I woke up this morning with a big smile on my face. Thank you everyone for your kind words in my last post. Like Beatrice said - One little bump on the road is nothing to get you down

I think i will move on and let go of all the drama i've created out of one comment. . Everyone has different styles of writing , and i will continue to learn and stay true to myself. Although i must admit honestly that i was a little upset to read negative feedback, but it was my first and i hope it will be the last.

Anonymous said...

I am indeed sorry you took the comment wrongly.

I merely spat (yes, i am rude enough to spit) out your own words.

And, you said it yourself: There are a hundred reasons to hate you. Sorry to burst your bubble, but i'm taking one of that hundred. You have so many fans who love the other hundred, so what's the big deal? Never had a hater before, huh?

well, surprise! it comes with... BLOGGING!

I just gave my opinion, and i chose to be anonymous. it's my choice, just like how you chose to quote a line from the simpsons.

so track me down. then what? criticise my writing?

lighten up, sunshine.

take my advice, and take it in stride.

PS: I don't want to say this in public but i respect your decision to remain Anonymous so if you're out there reading i hope you know that Yes this is the first time i had a hater. Your comment made me realize that i cant please everyone , and i will be happy to be me and do things my way. I don't need to track you down and criticise your writing because i don't have the right. And who am i to judge you anyway ? This is not high school , and as an adult i am just gonna laugh everything off and look at things the bright side.I will of course accept your advise :)

♫ Of the Moment : The Kills -Cheap and Cheerful

Hello Anonymous ?

2010-08-11T17:48:00.009+08:00

Guess what i saw in my comment column

Anonymous said... You are indeed a TRAGIC WRITTER. Ooops, I meant, writer.

Wow, your opinion on reading is beyond words. since the action cancels things out in your brain, why bother reading anyway?

How flippant you are. You want to be a writt- oh wait, writer -- but you have such low regards for reading.

Best,
Myjobentailswritingforanactualmagazine.

I say : I was wondering who you were hmmm.Your real job is writing for an actual magazine?
And i was paranoid for a while there thinking who did i offended to receive such comment.Then i read through your comment over and over again and I've realized You've judged me by reading my blogspot profile.

For your information , thanks for highlighting WRITTER , i did not realize the typo error till you mentioned it today. And the books i like column is based on a Simpson Quote. I love reading and i don't think i need to prove anything to you.

I have low regards for reading ? well maybe . I did not claim myself a good writer , and i did not point a gun to you head and force you to like my crap. BUT Thank you for your honest comment.

I am Sorry i cant be as cool as you to sign in as anonymous and write such 'nice' comments. If you don't like it , you can say it , i will accept it . Plus your comment motivates me to improve my writing . No one is perfect , thanks for reminding me.

Back to Reality

2010-08-10T11:43:00.002+08:00

I am back !

I have a million things to write , but with so little time and so much work . I guess i'll just do a quickie update .

Again thanks to all my new readers , without you girls i wont have the motivation to write. Give me 1 more day to reply everyone. I hope i can write more good stuff so i can have readers who will come back for more. Cross my fingers that i am able to reach 100 Tragic Readers ♥

Vacation is good , exhausted but very happy . But alas good time always ends in a blink of eye. Right now i'm back in the office , with piles of paper work to do and reports to complete. And here i am writing this while my bosses are in the meeting lol. Working is seriously no fun. And i will be dead meat if i'm caught blogging during working hours.

Back to my outfit post , i got this dress and silver pumps from Tesco. I know it seems like an odd place to get nice clothes but oh well i am lucky enough to found this.

Dress : Tesco

Silver Pumps :Tesco

Black Frangipani hair clip ( also happen to be my fav flower ) : Local Flea Market

Grey Cardigan : Scarlet

♪ If I could make the world as pure and strange as what I see,
I'd put you in the mirror,
I put in front of me.
I put in front of me.
Linger on, your pale blue eyes.

♫ Of the Moment : Pale Blue Eyes - Velvet Underground

PS:Did you know The Kills did a cover of this song recently

My Great Escape

2010-08-05T10:47:00.000+08:00

A note to everyone ,

I am going back to my hometown this evening. To my new readers , I am from Malaysia.I now live in the city , Kuala Lumpur but my heart is always back in my hometown.A small island called Penang which is also famous for being The Pearl Of The Orient. You cant find super nice beaches here , but its a nice place with nice people , lay back lifestyle and the food is awesome. Its not as hectic as the city , so its a good place to get away from your rat race life.

Plus i really miss my sisters and my little cousin so badly, so i am really excited to go home.

Sincere apologies if i did not have enough time to reply everyone's comments. And i will be away for 3 Days, hopefully i will have the time to update my blog and check out your links that you've shared with me in my comment column. Please fly me more paper aeroplanes as i will love to hear from you.

Special thanks to all my Tragic Readers, i've hit 60 Readers this week . you girls ! And not forgetting my new friends that i've made from different part of the world.

Looking forward to share and exchange more life stories :)

Me and my Sister Jesse , cant wait to see her and also Jolene my youngest sister

Do be my Tragic Reader if you ♥ What You See
I will be glad to support your blog too

♪ ''Hey child, things are looking down.
That’s okay, you don’t need to win anyways.
Don’t be afraid, just eat up all the gray
and it will fade all away.
Don’t let yourself fall down...''

♫ Of the Moment : Patrick Watson- The Great Escape

Itsy Bitsy Polka Dot

2010-08-04T17:39:00.002+08:00

This is the outfit i wore Yesterday , and photos were taken in front of my house. I woke up late yesterday morning , and so i went to work without make up .So basically this is what i look like after 8 hours in the office. Its gonna be a busy week ahead as i'm going move to a new place by next week. Loadsa packing to do , will write an update about that soon .

Love this dress, my friend bought Chloe bought it online and gave it to me. Rocking horse necklace which i bought for just RM5 . There is a story behind this necklace but i'll save it for my next update.

Polka Dot Dress : Online ( and its a gift from Chloe )

Red Jelly Pumps : Local Flea market
Rocking Horse Chain : i m not quite sure because i got it from a random stall

♫ Of the Moment : Kings Of Convenience - Cayman Island

If Music is What Feeling Sounds Like , August

2010-08-03T09:11:00.001+08:00

Here we go , my August's Playlist

Top 3 songs that I am currently obsessed with

O+S : New Life
Frou Frou : Breathe In

Silversun Pickups : Lazy Eye

The Unicorns: Sea Ghost

Gorillaz Feat Lou Reed : Some Kind of Nature
Cat Stevens ( Yusuf Islam ) : Where do The Children Play
Mumford and Sons : Awake my soul
Headlights : TV
The National : About Today
Laura Marling : I speak because I can
Fever Ray : If I have a heart

Zwan : Honestly
Local Natives : Camera Talk
Vivian Girls : Blind Spot
Anya Marina : Move You
The Dead Weather : Treat Me Like Your Mother
M83 : Highway of endless Dreams

The best thing that happen last month was My July Playlist

was published in a local Music Magazine Junk

I was screaming like crazy when i flipped through the pages and saw my name in their column

From Me to You

2010-08-02T16:07:00.004+08:00

Hello August ,

Time seem unstoppable , so screw the world and do what you want to . I 've started TragicFairyTales in 2007 , and recently i have transform it into a place where i can share inspiration with so many awesome writers from different part of the world who shares the same passion for Fashion , Photography and everything Vintage. People might think im a poser as i don't own any hi-tech camera, but again

Anyone can be a photographer , even a 5 year old kid. Its not the matter of how expensive your camera is , or how good your skills are, Its how you look at things and the passion to capture that magical moment that can last forever. I never claim myself a good photographer , i just happen to have that special love and i appreciate people who appreciates photography :)

As you can see , this is my very First Outfit post. I used to feel insecure about my size i still do now. Because being Asian and standing at 174cm tall, you can pretty imagine what its like when everyone is smaller than me. I cant wear heels , i cant wear anything bold because i will always be the odd one that everyone notices first. Some girls wished they had my height , and i wish i can be smaller . I felt awkward most of the time and the pressure is so high , If you're not size 0 then you're Godzilla.

But then recently i read so many fashion blogs which features women of all sizes , shapes and colors. And its amazing how they can look good they way there are and it made me feel better about myself.
I may not be the prettiest girl but i know i am not ugly.

Thanks to all my readers and Yes I have reached 50 Tragic Readers ♥

I might not have massive number of readers but its enough to make me smile

White Lace Blouse : IamMe
Blue Polka Dot skirt: Cotton On
Sneakers : Mum's

♫ Of the Moment : Frou Frou - Breathe In

Au Revoir July

2010-07-30T16:53:00.002+08:00

July is ending and this will be my final post for this month, I have so many awesome and topsy turvy stuff to write for August . I wont be updating my blog this weekend so sorry if you don't see any reply to your comments. Will be back by Monday .

Just for fun here are 10 Goodbyes in different languages , have fun

French : Au Revoir
Italy : Chao
Malay : Selamat Tinggal
Icelandic : Bless
Romanian : La Revedere
Russian : Poka
German : Mach's gut
Finland : Nakemiin
Danish : Farvel
Thai : La gon

I 've Googled them up , sorry if there's any silly mistakes.

So long ..Do Miss me when im gone * giggles

Cross fingers that i will reach 50 ~~follower~~ Readers by Monday

Do be my Tragic Reader if you ♥ what you see .

À bientôt

♫ Of the Moment : Beatles - All my loving

Fat Kid Diary

2010-07-28T10:21:00.004+08:00

Someone ruined my morning, which makes me want to write this. That someone is our office cleaner, she’s mute and most of the time we don’t understand what she is trying to say. Excuse me if I’m being a bitch but she really annoys me.

Yes I understand that you are handicap, but that doesn’t gives you the right to insult others. The first time it happen I was in the ladies for freshing up, she came up to me and starred at me .Then with her expression and sign language she told me that’s not the way to blush my cheeks , (Her make up is as thick as Chinese Opera singer , and mind me she is only the cleaner ). Fine I accept her honest comment.

Second time I wore a pretty white dress my friend got me from Australia , and in front of my colleague she uses her sign language and made fun of me saying I look like pregnant, I ignored her and my colleague knew that I was pissed so she ignored as well. And the cleaner keeps on repeating and laughs at her own lame joke.

And this morning in front of everyone again she made her signs which obviously says I'm FAT ,I don’t know why I let it get to me and out of anger I pointed my middle finger right at her face.

To be honest I felt insulted, at the same time sad. Does my weight matters to her? It’s so hard to stay confident and comfortable with my own body. Every time I try to tell myself I am pretty regardless what size I am, someone will say something mean. Everyone has something to say about what I wear and what I should not wear. What is everyone’s fucking problem ? If I am fat so what?
I did not ask you to feed me.

Goodbye beautiful Wednesday morning, my mood is uglier than her face right now.

The Professional Dreamer

2010-07-27T09:05:00.001+08:00

Have you ever lie down on a field and look at the pretty sky , picturing shapes of the cloud. Well the sky always made me happy , so here a few photos i made inspired by the sky. Yesterday i posted ''I wonder how does the sky taste like '' in my Facebook status and of course i got a few funny answers. Some people might think i'm being childish by posting such silly stuff but oh well , who cares about Boring people like them right.I am a professional dreamer and i know i am not the only one ♥

But seriously have you ever wonder how the cloud taste like ?

M83: We Own the Sky

♫ Silversun Pickups : Lazy Eye

♫ Joni Mitchell : River

From Me to You

2010-07-21T18:58:00.006+08:00

And i wonder if i ever cross your mind

~~To Me it Happens all the time~~

Songs For The Broken Hearted

Lykke Li Feat Kleerup : Until We Bleed
Rachael Yamagata : I'll find a way
Adele : Chasing Pavements
Rilo Kiley : Portions for foxes
Aqualung : Strange & Beautiful
Alanis Morrisette : Simple Together
Melly Goeslaw : Bimbang
Travis : Funny Thing
Carissa Wierd : Yours Truly Ugly Valentine
Coldplay : The Scientist
Counting Crows : Colorblind
Regina Spektor : Hero
Straylight Run : A Slow Decent
The Weepies : Gotta Have You
Noah and the Whale : Blue Skies

Music speak the words in my heart , but some words are meant to be unspoken

Jasmine

Meatballs & Fries

2010-07-20T19:23:00.002+08:00

Gosh i just cant get enough of Ikea's Sweedish Meatballs ,

Just some random photos of a fun day out with me sister ♥

We are the meatball monsters !

Me and my sister Jesse , ps: we're not twins :)

I can eat all of em ', * evil laugh*

And of course , have to watch out my diet :(

Blame Gingy , he ate all of em'

You can always try making them by purchasing the Cook Book, i'll leave this alone as i dont want to burn down the kitchen

♫ Of the Moment : Phantom Planet - Do the Panic

We are Good People With A Lot of Bad Habits

2010-07-16T18:08:00.005+08:00

Party at Phuture , Zouk

My Girl Friends ♥

Thanks to Veronica we got VIP seats

Go LOCO

We Work Hard , We Party Even HARDER

♫ Of the Moment : Le Tigre : Decepticon

Les contes de fées tragique

2010-07-15T16:41:00.002+08:00

I started my blog in 2008 , because Monkey see Monkey Do.Everyone has one so I got myself one too. I used to write endless angry stuff , I used to hate the world , I am Little Miss Grumpy.

Last night I deleted almost 50% of my old posts. Gosh reading back what I wrote is kinda hilarious. 40% Pathetic , 10 % Lame & 50% Emo , no wonder everyone labeled my blog as an Emo Blog !

Of course I wont turned into Little Miss Sunshine overnight, I am still the bitter , angry bitch who Yes Still Hates the world sometimes .But at least I will stop being such a pain in the ass by stop writing miserable stuff.

Say Hello to the new TragicFairyTales , it will totally be inspired by Music , Arts , Photography and my love for Music and everything Vintage

‘’The World Fascinates Me’’ – Andy Warhol

I am the girl with Kaleidoscope Eyes

♫ Of the Moment : Angus and Julia Stone - And the Boys

I made Art from My Heart

2010-07-13T18:54:00.003+08:00

I gave up shopping and stayed at home last weekend,

anti social mode On, completely out of my mind , with my ear phones plugged in

I made these...

I have no tittle for them yet , so i'll just name it after the song i am listening for my inspiration while making them.

♫ Mono - Life in Mono

♫ Animal Collective - Watching The Planets

This is personally my favorite..

♫ Anya Marina - Satellite Heart

If you are going to use my posters , please link it back to me . You wouldn't like it if someone uses your stuff without permission would you?

Comments

hate it , trash it , love it are most welcome

If Music Is What Feeling Sounds Like ♫ July

2010-07-12T10:44:00.048+08:00

The National : Conversation 16
( i am obsessed with this song )

Mumford and Sons : The Cave

The Trees and The Wild - Berlin

The New Pornographers : We end up together

Harlem : Gay Human Bones

First Aid Kit : Mountain Tiger Peasant Song
( Fleet Foxes Cover )

The Temper Trap : Fader

Angus and Julia Stone : Big Jet Plane

Marina and the Diamonds : Obsessions

Macy Gray : Don't forget Me

Unkle feat Thom Yorke : Rabbit in Your Headlights

Eric Hutchison : Rock 'N' Roll

( Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants 2 Ost )

Yeah Yeah Yeahs : Hysteric ( Acoustic Version)

It took me forever to come up with July's List as there is way too many songs that i really like this month. Here you go , these are the songs that are pretty stuck in my head for now.

Twenty Four Candles

2010-07-09T18:49:00.005+08:00

3 Chocolate cakes and a Tiramisu , what else can a girl ask for her birthday

♪ ''Blowing out the candles from my cake
I choke on the smoke as I look around the room
Everybody is wishing for no more mistakes
And all that I can think about is you...''

Angus and Julia Stone-Chocolates & Cigarettes

He disappoint me..Not even a text message ?

Then again who am i to have expectations..

My first cake from the boys and my bestie Veronica , they totally surprised me because i thought it was our regular dinner night out , and i was screaming like crazy when La Cocina played the Birthday song, and the waiter brings out the cake . They planned my surprise Party few back , and asked one of my good friend Heng Hwa to be the spy to digs out what i want for my Birthday lol,

( a gift relevant to what i love most which is Music ) So sweet and thoughtful of everyone.

A memorable night ♥ and I totally love my brand new Audio Technica ear phones , It was AWESOME !

Second cake from my ex colleagues who also happens to my closest friends . A Big Shout out to all the great ladies, Nicole Yee, Elee Lee , Chloe Chan , Hui Xiang

and

the stupid boys ( just joking) Kah Soon and Kai Jun.

Third cake came from my new bos and new colleagues, another Chocolate cake ! I was busy browsing Facebook, Shhh..when everyone started to sing the Birthday song :)

Happy Birthday BITCH ! i love this , a change after 3 chocolate cakes , My besties bought me a Tiramisu. We've been friends for almost 10 years now ,And because i've been missing in action for the past years ,This is the first time i get to celebrate with them . We sing our heart out that day in RedBox Karaoke then spent the rest of the day shopping, i love them to death.

I am 24 and still fabulous
Thanks everyone , I felt loved and spoiled

♫ Of the Moment :Tell Him - Tell Him - Barbara Streisand & Celine Dion

My girlfriend sang this song the other day ,and yes He's the only person which crossed my mind

Lucy in the Sky With Diamonds

2010-07-09T17:16:00.005+08:00

I've always love fun fairs , the colors, the rides, cotton candy, games booths , food stalls, Oh so pretty ♥

For this photoshoot, we sneaked into the fair so as you can see its still day time , hope you'll like the photos

♫ Of the Moment : Karen O and the Kids - Sailing Home

Happy Birthday To Myself

2010-07-02T12:45:00.016+08:00

Hey its my fucking Birthday, Wear a party hat and blow candles off my fucking cake, I am So happy ! And I am fucking lying about that.

Sucks,I still gotta get up at 6 am this morning and wait for the fucking bus to get to work.Now here I am at 10:51 stuck with paper work, Not the exact perfect picture for a Happy Birth DAY huh…I thought everyone's world evolves around mine today.Oh Fudge , i am turning into a boring working class hero.

Thanks to Facebook reminder , wall has been spammed with wishes.Can u believe I am actually counting and remembering those who wished me this year and all those who did not , I’m so gonna delete them from my friend list tomorrow haha I am joking.

Can I write my bank account no in my status or Twitter so people can bank in money for me? I don’t want wishes or presents, I want hard cold cash!

Ok that is a lame joke as well

Fine i'll just wear a big smile and sit and wait for miracles to happen

Wishes

A truck load of shoes has just been delivered to my house
Parcel containing Diana F & Holga in my post box.
Everything in Forever 21 Is just RM10
A full scholarship for degree from a famous Art School
Emirates called and beg me to join their Airlines
Woke up the next day with 36D,25, 34 body measurement
Ticket to Paris
I could I afford my own car , and a nice apartment before I turn 25
~~He would at least fucking remember my fucking birthday~~
( ITS ON FACEBOOK)
ALL MY WISHES could come true

My Humble Wishlist of the things i WANT !

If all of the above are not gonna happen, then Birthdays are just reminders that you’re old, accept the fact and be grateful you are not dead ..YET

♫ Of the Moment : Arcade Fire - Wake Up

500 Days of Summer Memorable Quote

2010-07-01T18:59:00.002+08:00

Summer: ''Ok. I, like being on my own. I think relationships are messy and people’s feelings get hurt. Who needs it? We’re young, we live in one of the most beautiful cities in the world; might as well have fun while we can and, save the serious stuff for later.''

♫ Of the Moment : Here Comes Your Man - Meaghan Smith ( The Pixies Cover)

Oh Fudge, Its July

2010-07-01T08:53:00.008+08:00

Knock knock July,

Whoah can u believe it 6 months has passed in the blink of an eye. Kinda scary huh, well maybe not for you but I am totally freaking out now. And oh well just for your information ehem, tomorrow is my fucking birthday, pfffft the figures goes up each year , someone please define HAPPY BIRTHDAY ! You must be sick in the head if getting older makes you happy.

Lets hope I have the inspiration to write nothing but good stuff for the days to come

I’ve chosen Tim Myer’s Beautiful World as my new featured song this month. Boy trust me I was having a hard time deciding between Macy Gray’s Don’t Forget Me , Straylight Run’s Words We Say ( Acoustic version ) or this. So in the end I pick this song because Its less depressing.And as for my new music addiction, I am really into Mumford and Sons and The National lately. Both are really awesome indie bands that you totally need to check out.

Fashion wise, I think I am Cotton On’s no 1 Customer! I'm like a kid walking into a candy store.I bought 3 dresses in the same design but different colors and prints, not forgetting 4 pairs of shoes and 4 high waist skirts just to regret it because everyone has the same thing! Like what the Fudge.

It makes me wanna pawn on them and claw off their clothes hahaa, Thank God I am not wearing any particular pieces each time I bumped into all my long lost identical twins.Don’t you just hate to step out from the house feeling good, Assuming you’re such a fashion genius then had to hide behind a pillar to save yourself from embarrassment when someone else is wearing the exact outfit. Bonkers…I guess I should learn from the phrase ‘Never follow the trend, Start the trend’! This will be me my fashion mantra from now.

Last but not least thanks to all my Tragic Readers, lol if there is any out there. I like living in denial so I am assuming that at least one or two friends will drop by sometimes haha.But its OK if nobody does, its not like the end of the world if no one gives a shit about what I wrote. I don’t really care anyway.

Hmmm…….

Ohh Kaay ITS NOT OK, I’ll cover my head with blanket and cry if nobody reads this hahaha

With ♥ Your Tragic Writer,

Jasmine

♫ Of the Moment : Vivian Girls - Moped Girls

The Best Man in My Life

2010-06-21T11:18:00.003+08:00

Those who knew me well enough will know that I grew up without having a father.And if you have the heart to know me better you will know the reason why.

I am super lucky because I don’t need to fork out money to get gifts or buy dinner as I don’t celebrate Fathers Day. Every Father’s Day is just another day which existed in the Calender, and it’s also a special day for me to remember and write angry stuff about my ‘Deady’, Happy Deady Day ,Mr Tony suck my dog's balls.

But this year I will like to write from my heart and so I hereby dedicate this post to my Late Grandfather

He was …

The one who came to my rescue each time I misbehave and was about to get a hell of wacking from my grandma or my mum.

The one who bought me Doraemon comics

The one came all the way to school on a hot sunny day even if it’s by bus just to send me my school books that I left at home

The one who taught me how to ride my bicycle,The one who cleaned my wound when I crashed my bike the next day

The one who would get up in the morning and make me his special Longan tea with egg and rock sugar for my birthdays…my 21st Birthday was the last time I had the taste of it…

The one who send me to school and sat next to me in the bus during the days when we dont own a car

The one who taught me every values and lessons which I need to know about life.

The one who will say ‘’Be good , you’re one year older , I wonder how many more years everyone can get to sit and eat together like now’’ , he said that every year during Reunion Dinner..

The one who drove the whole family on road trips during Chinese New Year, in fact he was the one who drove everyone everywhere..

The one would rather not eat and save all the good food for me

The one that I watch every Olympics, Commenwalth and badminton games with.
I was clueless most of the time, and he would explain to me about the players and the countries they represent. He did not make it to watch 2008’s Olympics and this year’s World Cup which was his favorite…

The one I hurt so badly when I grew up and turned into a rebellious monster

The one whose love I took for granted for all this years

The one who I scream and yell at when we had fights

The one who shed tears because of the hurtful things I’ve said when im angry…..

The one who I misses so much, the one who I cried thinking about before I close my eyes and sleep.

The one who suffers from pain alone because of the selfishness and ignorant of his family including me….

The one whom everyone said was a good man when they attended his funeral ….

The one and only Dad I had and need in my life…'Dta Jaa' ( dear grandpa in Thai )

Dear Ah Kong , there are many times when I got so angry I yelled at you and said I wish you’re not my grandfather, I wish I could take all that back now…I wish I could just tell you that I am sorry and I love you. There is not a single day I live where I don’t think about you. I miss you ..Happy Fathers Day ah kong.

You are the Best Man in my life.

Not forgetting my Wondermum who has played the role of mum and also Dad for the past 24 years :)

♫ Of the Moment : The Beatles - In My Life

My Monster ♥

2010-06-18T12:00:00.006+08:00

My little monster is here for the holidays, YAY ! I never really like children but she is exceptional even though she can be the worst pain in the ass sometimes. She’s a cartoon addict, she can watches all those lame cartoons over and over again. The other day I watched all this nonsense cartoons with her, there is this show about a boy who went to an animal school , then there is another show about Sushis who has super powers , I’m like what the F .

What ever happen to good old cartoons like The Little LuLu Show

Last night she watch me paint my finger nails with fascination, so I let her play with my pink nail polish, and she’s like superb excited about it. A child who fascinates over an adult’s world, she reminds me so much about myself when I’m at her age.

Kids wish to grow up and adults wish they were kids again, Isn’t it Ironic

When I was 10 , I used to love to play with my mum’s cosmetic , wear her high heels and imagine I am walking on a runaway .What I love most is when play’ treasure hunt’ and digs out her jewelries box to play with her chandelier ear rings , faux pearls , chunky bracelets and necklaces . And in the end of the day, I will be in deep shit when I got caught.

My mum and late grandma has the craziest collection of clothes, I swear to God it’s in the family genes. When my grandpa died we had to move to a smaller house, my grandma donated almost a whole truck load of clothes to the Salvation Army, I am not making this up.

When I was 10, it took my mum forever to look at shoes and bags, I used to sulk while waiting impatiently for her to take me to the Toys department I remember asking her

‘’Mummy are you not bored buying so many pair of shoes and bags, and she said ‘’Wait till you’re older then you’ll know”

Now as I’m all grown up, she’ll be the one nagging‘’ How many pairs of shoes do you need when you only have 2 feet’’ lol

When I was 10, my grandma used to tie my hair in different styles, one day I was in a debate competition and she tied my hair up into two buns which made me look like Princess Leia from Stars Wars. And all the seniors came and pinch my chubby cheeks complimenting on how cute I look. Sometimes when she got fed up of me wanting her to style my hair, she’d sarcastically asked if I’m going to school or joining a beauty pageant ! God, I miss her so much..

As a child I think I pretty live in a world of my own, I day dream a lot and that’s the only thing that has never changed in me.

As a kid , when I see my aunts , back then teenagers puts on their make up and wear trendy clothes , talked about their boyfriends and listen to cool music , I secretly wish to grow up as fast as I can So that one day I can be like them.

Now at 24 , I wish I could get up in the morning and live a day without painting my face I wish I could sing out loud in public , I wish I could laugh when I want , cry out loud when I want , scream when I want to without having to need a reason to do so. I wish I could believe in everything and know nothing. I wish that I could be angry with the world and forgotten all about it when I wake up in the morning. I wish I could be the simple minded girl who doesn’t need a reason to be happy. ♥

ps-she's not my daughter , she's my cousin . So please Don't be an idiot and make stupid assumptions

♫ Of the Moment : MGMT- Kids

Inspiration of the Day - Mark Ryden

2010-06-16T11:27:00.006+08:00

"I still remember the joy I got out of drawing, painting and building a world of my own when I was a child. I was free. I try to recapture that feeling I had making art as a child and to believe in magic, to play, to dream. Children see things and feel things that adults don’t.

As an adult, there are many barriers to being in this creative state of mind. I feel constantly challenged by these barriers. It is very difficut to let go of responsibilities and enter a creative fantasyland. It’s hard to stop looking at the clock and our bills. It’s hard not to drown in relationship problems and all the negative thoughts that deflate our motivation to create. If you can summon the strength to get past all these things and trust your heart, creativity can be miraculous. You can be transported to another existence.

There are two very different parts to the brain. There is the logical side and the creative side. To make art you have to stop thinking in a linear way. You have to bring to life the part of your brain that finds mystical wonder in life and nature. There is a part of your soul that can spend hours admiring the subtle colors and shapes in an old raccoon skull. You have to find the particular things that bring out your spirit. It may be to get up at the crack of dawn to explore the flea market in search of treasure. Perhaps light incense and listen to music that would embarrass you if anyone knew about, and wonder about alchemy, astrology and the secrets of the universe. It is the part of your spirit that still feels like a kid, and is awe-inspired and fascinated by the world.

My goal in art is to get past literal conscious thought and try to let my uninhibited subconscious mind make my art. I can feel it when this is working. I have heard many artists describe the same feeling. Some think it is the hand of God using them as an instrument of creation. Some describe it as the creative energizing force that permeates all nature creating through them. It is like being helped by some unknown mysterious force, Anima Mundi, the Spirit of the Universe.

You must trust your subconscious and the unknown sources it can tap into. There is so much for our minds to sort out. Millions of images and thoughts spinning around. If it were all there right the front of your conscious thinking your head would explode. My subconscious mysteriously sorts through this sea of thoughts and images and somehow synthesizes pieces from here and there and brings together paintings. They are the exclusive product of my unique mind. There is only one of each of us and our visions are the special product of our experiences and special unique thoughts.

I am drawn towards certain images and icons with a strong instinct. I feel I just have to paint certain things. I try not to question that. I can get just as much inspiration from a classical painting by Jacques-Louis David as a comic book cover by Daniel Clowes. I try to not judge one to be more legitimate than the other. The mystified gaze of a Keane girl can provide as much inspiration as the penetrating stare of a Rembrandt portrait.

I find it so much easier to be creatively free at night. Daytime is for sleeping. Nighttime is the best time for making art. The later at night it gets the further into another world you go. A few years ago while working very late one night, the distinct smell walnuts in the air broke my concentration. It was very quiet. A strange breeze gently blew through my studio. I suddenly became aware of something on my shoulder. Surprisingly, I was not startled to find a wee Abraham Lincoln sitting right there on my shoulder. We looked at each other for just a moment. Then he very softly whispered in my ear “paint meat.” -- Mark Ryden

Check out more of magical work here Mark Ryden

♫ Of the Moment : Marina and the Diamonds - Obsessions

Wild Young Heart

2010-06-14T09:34:00.010+08:00

DO you have a Boyfriend?
And when I answered NO
They’ll ask WHY

People tend to ask me this this question like a LOT !

U know in Chinese, this is what we call Kay poh cis

So by being nice I’d always give the same answer

Cute guys are gays, Gentlemen are officially dead and good ones are taken.

U wants the truth? Truth is, my market is pretty bad lately, no one is going after me right now plus I can’t find anyone fascinating to fascinate about.
A guy friend of mine jokingly says that I am a potential lesbian.

I guess i'm just lazy plus I’m getting a little too old to sit and dream of a perfect guy who came out of nowhere and sweep me off my feet. Love does not make my world go round, money does. I am sorry but I don’t have a golden heart.

Can love itself buy you a nice apartment or That fancy car and a secure life? Will you want to marry your so called The one and stay in a rented apartment, work your ass off to pay the bills, constantly have to worry about ends meet, have children and can hardly afford nice things for yourself then spend your life miserably because money is never enough .I guess 10 years from now, you’ll still tell the world its worth it because you love your man who is now a 40 year old working class idiot snoring like a train beside you. You’re consider lucky if he is still sleeping next to you since now you’re an unattractive, worn out middle age hag who has to worry after your screaming kids, your lady boss from hell and the unwashed dishes rather than your appearance.

“Don’t you worry there my honey, we might not have any money but we’ve got our love to pay the bills..’’ You and I –Ingrid Michaelson, well that is just a fucking song oh k

Love is blind?, I am telling your now its not , you’re just plain stupid if you think so.

Riding on a bus together, go on cheap dates and receive stupid plushies for birthdays and chocolate on Valentines Day is sweet Only IF you’re 16 ! Get what I mean. No one wants to spend their lives with a loser; I’m not saying that you gotta be a gold digger.
He does not have to have a big fat wallet but please don’t be with someone who has holes in his pocket.

I am a shallow person, despite the shit im preaching about how I want someone to like me for who I am inside and not what he sees on the outside.
But being a selfish little bitch I gotta admit that looks does matter, it will be completely bullshit if you say its not. The way someone is groomed , how they act and their appearance Does matter to me. You wouldn’t wanna date a slob or a pig would you? Will you want to dress to the nine and go out with some clueless moron who look like his mum picks hit outfit for him?

Just the thought of being with someone for more than a 3 months scares the shit out of me, I get bored easily and commitments is way not fun. Friends asked am I not afraid that I might ends up alone when I am old, well I am more afraid that I don’t have money for botox when I am turning 40…Just joking. I would love to love again but I have a dysfunctional heart.

I never say I’m too good for anyone, but I think I have the right to want nothing but only the Best. So what if I don’t deserves it, it’s not up to u to judge.

Till then I cant find any reason why I cant be a happy single independent woman…Erm can I use Girl instead, woman sounds so old. Although it will be nice to have someone to cuddle sometimes, a standby 24 hours driver, a punching bag when I had a bad day, and credit cards to buy me expensive stuff that I want when I run out of cash..I want to date a superman !

Haha I am money face, fickle minded, shallow, selfish and difficult. I have nothing to prove , I’m just saying what I want in my blog which I don’t need anyone’s permission plus I did not point a gun on anyone’s head and force them to like what I write.

I think those who read this and hate it probably start labeling me as a bimbo right now.

So please stop trying to tell me who I should see and like or good for me.

XOXO

‘Jasmine

♫ Lets play some girl power music shall we ,

Nancy Sinatra – Don’t let him waste your time
Soko – I will never love you more
Son of a gun- Missy Elliot feat Janet Jackson