Your brown eyes are my blue skies.

''I Carry your heart with me ( I carry it in my heart ) i am never without it , anywhere i go you go'' - E.E Cummings

I did not mention in my last post , he went to Canada to further his studies Last Monday , 

7th February 2011 .. Love once again has tear us apart..

Was on Skype with him the other day , God knows how much I miss him . The weather in Toronto is really cold , he is trying to adapt to the changes and learning about his new place. School is going to start soon , I was so worried , before he left I was having a bad cold and seems like he got it from me. As we chatted I was crying , and somehow ironically he knew . He asked me am I crying, I said NO..he knew I was lying. I did not want him to worry because I want him to move on , he has a new life there, new faces to meet , and most probably he will meet someone new soon. Inside me I am dying , it was hard enough to be so far away from him, I could not touch him or hug him. He told him it was hard for him too but he won't show it to me because he knows I will cry. He knows I have not been sleeping for the past few days, why am I being so childish.

It's hard to act tough, I am falling apart. Days goes on, life seems the same. Every morning when I wake up I look at the sky, and wonders what is he doing ,the time difference is really crazy. Under the same sky, but miles and miles apart. I told him not to worry about me, because he is in my heart , so he is always near to me. He asked me if I like snow, he showed me the view from his condo.

 Well if things were meant to be, I might give up everything in Malaysia to be with him. 

Its too early to decide now ...if he found someone better I will let him go with an open heart.

''Can you help me?
Can you let me go
And can you still love me
When you can't see me anymore''


♫ Of the Moment : KT Tunstall - Other Side of the World

Forget me Not

Hello loves, 

It felt so weird to be writing again as I have abandoned my blog for the past months , Lost a few followers when I am away. At the same time gained some new ones, I wonder if I am forgetting too by so many of my dear friends and writers. What inspires me to write again is emails, and all the comments received.  Well thank you, your words make me want to write again.

Well I am back for good, I have been covered in shells for far too long, life has been high and low. WHAT HAVE I MISSED? EVERYTHING! 

So I'll keep this a really short one , as I can't wait to read everyone's updates and check out my new readers , reply comments and say Hi to everyone again ! GOSH  its a little too late but Happy New Year girls. Please Please Please drop by and say HI , can't wait to hear from everyone ♥

Miss you guys ! Hugs and Kisses !!

♪ But when you give me love
When you give me love

I have no fear of heights

No fear of the deep blue sea,
Although it could drown me

I know it could drown me

♫ Of the Moment :Katie Melua - No Fear of Heights

Sweet Like Candy

Sorry for my lack of post, it’s just that I don't have anything inspiring to write lately , plus coming home from work I just felt exhausted, uninspired , and mentally drained
  It's good to get away from the computer for a while ..
 

I do not want to write just for the sake up updating my blog.

I promise I will be more committed to my blog. 

I just need some time off .. Hope you guys understand..
I will be back and I will check out all the links exchange and reply comments and drop by my new followers' page soon..

And I did not have any new outfit post , I'll just share some sweetness with my readers

I love candy stores ,

I never really fancy sweet stuff but I just like to walk in and look at all the colours , shapes and the happy faces of children

What is your favorite Candy?

Mine is Gummy Bears , red ones especially :)

♫ Of the Moment : Brooke Fraser - Something In The Water
( this song makes me smile during a bad day )

If I'm Ugly Then So Are YOU

Have you ever woken up and feel like smashing the mirror so you won't have to see your reflection ?
 

Have you ever walked with your head high just to have something to say something bad behind your back 

And made you feel like you're the ugliest creature on earth?
 

Have you ever starved yourself so you can live up to someone else's expectations ?
 

Have you thought of going under the knife so you can look like the models in magazines?
 

Have you ever been made fun of because of your difference ? In skin colour / weight / shape or height 

Seriously who are they to tell us what is beautiful and what is not

All of us went through that and I think it's really ugly to make others feel bad about themselves..

To all women out there ,

You are beautiful and never let anyone make you feel the opposite

♫ Of the Moment : Sugababes - Ugly

Hello ! I am BACK

Gosh my blog has been dead for 4 days. I've just reach home yesterday. Finally i can have time to laze in front of my desktop and write a short update.

Trip back home was good. Time was not enough for me to see everyone . But i manage to meet up with one of my best guy friend Gino. He sat behind me in class when we were 18. Funny how people always say there is no way a boy and girl can remain as best friends.

Such thing does not exist , WELL HEY LOOK AT US !

We live for together for almost a year back in 2008 , and he is one the people who truly sees and accept the UGLY side of me lol . He tolerate my bad temper and of course we fight and i have said the meanest thing that i wish i could take it back. But i am just glad we can still be comfortable in our skin and yet remain the best of friends ever.

He is gonna kill me if he sees this candid shot lol

As for the outfit My dress and my first pair of Brogues ( OH YES ) are from Cotton ON
Head band from Forever 21
And bag from a local store

PS: I will check out everyone's update by tomorrow , i want to jump on my bed and sleep right now

♫ Of the Moment :Florence and theMachine : Dog Days Are Over

Check out her new official video remake for this song , AWESOME !

One Last Note Before I Go

Hi girls ,  Thank u so much everyone for your advise on the DSLR . Cross fingers that i can make up my mind soon and get the perfect one. And as for the boy , i am going on a date with him next Saturday , because he has class and i have to work and despite staying in the same city his place is pretty far from mine so we don't have the chance to meet up this week. But he text me EVERYDAY , all the time which is really sweet. I am not jumping into any serious relationship yet , well we shall see how things goes. I will update everyone if i have good news lol. 


By the way this will be my last post for this week. I wont be around for 4 days. I will be out of town , and please excuse me if i am a little slow in checking your comments. I will be back by Monday ,  i know i am going to missed out a lot of blog updates during the weekend. :(
Will check out your post as soon as i am home

I will miss everyone especially all my readers ,Wait for me please !

Just a short update and some random photos i took , scroll down for magic ♥

One last thing before i sign off ,

Sharing my new found love Coffee and a Cardigan

Love you girls , Thank for all your support and your words meant a lot to me 

And the sweet sweet sun's comin' down hard , The sun's comin' down hard

 

Pinch me its October already ? Goodbye September, did anything interesting during the weekend?

I went partying with my girlfriends on Friday Night , threw up like crazy at home.
Woke up with a hang over the next morning , rush to another friend's registration of marriage then slept my whole Saturday away . It was CRAZY , by the way i met a boy in the club will tell u girls about it the next time. I can feel the tingles on my back.
 

Anyway I need some advise from you guys
As you see i promised myself that i will try to come up with better photos
So after months of surveying and inquiring i am planning to get a DLSR

Cropped Oversized shirt :Local Store
High Waist Grey Skirt : Cotton On
Silver Pumps : Vincci
Bag : Vintage

What do you guys think about Canon EOS - 1000D?
Or you have any recommendations for a beginner like me

♫ Of the Moment : The Temper Trap : Fader

Love will Tear Us Apart Again

Growing up in a broken family , i have nothing much to write about my parent's love story. I mean they had their time , people change and i still hate my dad for leaving us.

I spent most of my time with my grandparents, from sleeping in the middle of their bed with them when i am little . I am always the apple in my grandfather's eye, spoiled to death by him.

Funny people often think i uses Ithisingkarn as a glamor name , but no i did not .
Ithisingkarn is my late grandfather's name in Thai. I don't see the point of using my dad's family name when basically this person has never been there for me.

My grandfather is a Thai student from Bangkok who came to Penang Island , Malaysia to study. He came with a group of friends and they rented a room in ( now our heritage house in Penang ). My grandmother's mother was a widow with 5 children to raise. Her husband my great grandfather was a  wealthy businessmen who died at a very young age leaving her with 5 children to raise. My great grandmother work as a seamstress , all the women in my family including my grandma can work magic on the sewing machine except us ( the new generation including my mum ) .

I adores her beautiful wedding dress made of lace , someday if i ever get married i would want my dress to be exactly like hers

In my hometown Penang is where my Grandpa met my Grandma

My grandma is a beautiful yet so stubborn and head strong. 

She told us back then she have many suitors, there is one who work as a pilot, one was my Grandfather's best friend who is a rich man's son from Bangkok,and jokingly she will always say she must have been blind to choose a poor man like my Grandfather.
 

I love listening to her stories because back then not every girl is lucky enough to have the chance to be with someone they love. 

During her time , most of the girls are married to men they have not seen before , it was always the arranged marriage by their parents.
But back then people understand and respect the value of marriage not like the young people nowadays.

They Fell in love just like a fairy tale But God did not give them the chance to grow old together. I lost my grandfather in December 2008 , my grandma was so heart broken she passed away few months after him.....

When 2 hearts beats as one , till death do them part

Every time i see an old couple holding hands on the street, i secretly pray that my
Grandparents is in somewhere better , Together. 

In Loving memory 

♪ Next door there's an old man who lived to his nineties
And one day passed away in his sleep
And his wife; she stayed for a couple of days
And passed away...

i cried when i heard this song, because God knows how much it reminds me of them

♫ Of the Moment : Ben Folds Five- The Luckiest

The Jill of All Trades and Mistresses of None

When i was seventeen my English Teacher said ' Jasmine don't be a Jack of All Trades Master of None. Which i still think i am ..I have a gift , which is to draw , i love to draw , i wish i can work magic on a paper but sadly i cant. I am looking forward to learn everything starting from basic. 

I also wish to learn to sew , wearing clothes that i made sounds pretty awesome too me. I envy those who has so much talent to make creative DIY pieces and clothes.
I am in between size 12-14 , YES BELIEVE IT.

In Malaysia most of the clothes , design are meant size S - M , most of the stuff i like does not come in my size. Sometimes its so frustrated to walk in a store to see clothes that look like as if they were made for anorexic victims, no offends to anyone who is naturally petite and slim.

And labels or store from Overseas like Forever 21 , Miss Selfridge and Dorothy Perkins does have my size but to be honest i find most of the stuff pretty pricey for me.


Don't even make me start with shoes , its such a pain to hunt for the perfect shoe which come in my size. 

So tell me girls , if you have the time and money what would u wish u can learn?

Here is my humble list

• Sewing - I want to make my own dresses
• Acoustic Guitar - For my passion for music
• Baking - Make cakes , cupcakes , muffins and bread , the thought itself made me smile
• French - I always find the language very sexy :)
• Photography - Would love to know everything about manual and film cameras
  
  I am saving up for this baby , Olympus EPL-1
  
  
  
  Girls sorry for my lack of time spend with my blog, will drop by to say Hi to everyone soon.
  Got to rush out for my bestie's birthday dinner
  Have a happy Sunday everyone
  Can't wait to hear from you ♥
  
  ♫ Of the Moment : The Mamas & The Papas - Dream a Little Dream of Me
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  

Sigur Ros - Glósóli

I wanted to write a post today , but i left my hard disk with all my photos in it back in the office :(
Till then , may u feel magic in this song just like i do



So beautiful , it almost made me cry