Monday, 14 February 2011

Your brown eyes are my blue skies.

''I Carry your heart with me ( I carry it in my heart ) i am never without it , anywhere i go you go'' - E.E Cummings

I did not mention in my last post , he went to Canada to further his studies Last Monday , 
7th February 2011 .. Love once again has tear us apart..

Was on Skype with him the other day , God knows how much I miss him . The weather in Toronto is really cold , he is trying to adapt to the changes and learning about his new place. School is going to start soon , I was so worried , before he left I was having a bad cold and seems like he got it from me. As we chatted I was crying , and somehow ironically he knew . He asked me am I crying, I said NO..he knew I was lying. I did not want him to worry because I want him to move on , he has a new life there, new faces to meet , and most probably he will meet someone new soon. Inside me I am dying , it was hard enough to be so far away from him, I could not touch him or hug him. He told him it was hard for him too but he won't show it to me because he knows I will cry. He knows I have not been sleeping for the past few days, why am I being so childish.

It's hard to act tough, I am falling apart. Days goes on, life seems the same. Every morning when I wake up I look at the sky, and wonders what is he doing ,the time difference is really crazy. Under the same sky, but miles and miles apart. I told him not to worry about me, because he is in my heart , so he is always near to me. He asked me if I like snow, he showed me the view from his condo.

 Well if things were meant to be, I might give up everything in Malaysia to be with him. 
Its too early to decide now ...if he found someone better I will let him go with an open heart.
''Can you help me?
Can you let me go
And can you still love me
When you can't see me anymore''

Of the Moment : KT Tunstall - Other Side of the World