Oh No..

I Don't Think Much About You Anymore

You're Not on Every Whisper

♫ of the moment : Oh Lately its So Quite - OK GO

WHORE-rible , enough said

Im taking a deep breathe before i cant stop myself from smashing my whole desktop ! YES this is another bitching crap on my obviously not fun job. Why not quit it if i hate is this much? Good question, can i answer with 'WHY dont Money grow on tree'? I buried my dreams and my passion for Arts..'Go for it, just do it' people tells me..Can i say WHY DONT YOU FUCKING PAY FOR IT? Why am i not chasing after it ? Its a materialistic world, face it, i cant afford college.Which is why i am loser working in a 9-5 base job which has nothing to do with arts or Public communications..In fact my AWESOME job is not related to anything that i like ! Now please tell me that dreams do come true? or Miracles happens to people who believes in them Screw everyone who have balls to tells me that !

There is a WHORE-rible person who is giving me hell, who makes me feel like i am never good enough, who takes credit for all the shit that i cleans up..But when things gets screwed up, i am always the perfect candidate to gets all the BLAME ! This Whore-rible creature appears to be the nicest and sweetest animal Oppps i mean 'human in' front of you..With its big fake pastic smile.. and beautifully polished claws , to tear u up into pieces at your back ! I want my muumy cause this creature is SO UGLY , i am so fucking terrified, i think im gona shit in my pants ! ( you are so ugly, i am fucking disgusted with your face, your voice and most of all your attitude which u think is sooooo perfect...NOT ! )

GOD, why cant some people just play nice..Does it makes them happier when they bring someone down just to make them look great? I mean, do they even know that PEOPLE HATES THEM, and not everyone is blind, people sees all the bad stuff that they did to others..One day or another you're gona get what you deserve..SO dont do things that you wont want others to do to you !

Office life sucks..i wish im still a kid

♫ of the moment : Blah Blah Blah - Say Hi To Your Mum

Save Your ♥ For Me

I first read about this track from a review in a music blog , then i downloaded it and i was like thinking BLAHH, what a weird song and totally forgotten about it then this few days i put my ear phone on and while waiting for the God Damn bus in the morning, i played this song and put in on repeat and as weird as it seems, i am totally addicted right now. Brilliant brilliant track ! totally ♥ it !

And i was wondering , is there anyone out there who loves the kind of music i love and i'm glad that there are ! They are out there somewhere !

check out some of this really awesome music blog

• Pop Headwound

• ( thanks to Fitry , he recommended this page cause he knows i love weird bands )

• P/s check out his T shirt Design in melongray ! its superb !

• Music For Kids Who cant spell Good

• I am waking up to....

Support Indie Music !

I am feeling hyper when i knows that i am not the only one who loves the music i love !

♫ of the moment : Save Your Love For Me - Quinn Walker
( you can check out Suckers version too, Both are equally Brilliant ! )

Nonya Story

My Ah Chor's wonderful heritage house

I always claim myself western minded, To be honest when im in my teen years, i always wish i'm not chinese ..I dont listen to chinese songs, i speak bad mandarin, my bos laugh at my cantonese lol but somehow i like it that way..I envy the Caucasian with green eyes, natural brunette hair and freckled skin..As i grow up i learn that being Asian is not that bad after all, I am proud of my culture , my herirtage, my family, where i came from..But to be honest at times i still mock fun at typical chinese girls who dress up like crap and speak in mandarin..then my mum will like ' Stop it, You think you're mat salleh izit'

My Beautiful Ah Chor Madam Chng'

My Ah Chor ( great grandmother ) is a Nonya from Penang ( well, thats what she told us ).. I think thats pretty cool although growing up in her heritage house is not exactly like what we watch in Singapore's Little Nonya Series..( well, u cant believe everything that is shown in sitcoms )
But like many tradition houses, we have ancestors photos hanging on the wall ..Nobody really wears tradition clothes anymore . If will cost you big bucks to get a pair of kebaya nowadays..I wish i had one of my own..

Ah Chor middle, Aunt Helen from the left, My grandma & Aunt Annie

Photos of Ancestors hanging on the wall
My great great great grandfather with both his wives

The lady in the photo is my Chor Chor ( great great grandmother )photo taken during my grandparents wedding

Ah Chor had a lot of pairs of beaded shoes, i remember when i was little when my feet is still SMALL, i like to put them on and once i got into trouble when i forgotten to put them back.I lied that it wasn't me who was playing around with them..and boy i get a hell of spanking that night
The other day while back In Penang , i asked my ah chor if she still keep her nonya kebayas, she some of the really good ones including some of her fine cheongsams and jewels were stolen during World War II..Last time when my grandma is still around , i told her i want Ah Chor's kebayas , and she sarcastically joke that I cant fit any of her kebayas ( lol , my ah chor is super petite , and i am obviously NOT )

This is one of my grand aunt, Suan Kheng Po, she was a a very nice lady, she died many years ago when im around 8, her funeral was my first

Well I cant remember who she is,but i found this in my Ah Chor's photo album

One thing weird about me is that i really loves old building, espcially old houses which survived the pre-war days..It always amuses me..Sometimes when i passed by i will imagine and wonder how was life back then? Its really so sad that alot of them has been torn down or demolished due to developments..Like my Ah Chor's house, i guess around 5 generations grew up in that haven..I cried the other day thinking if one day Ah Chor is not here anymore, they will want to sell that old house..Because all her children grew up and have family of their own..Nobody wants to stay there anymore..How i wish i had more money so i can buy that place up..That house is where my late grandfather met my grandma , fell in love and got married ( someday i might write about them)..Its a place full of memories.....

This is a current photo of my Ah Chor showing me her wedding photo back in the 30's

I love old photographs too, Ah Chor had alot of them, i told her that when she passed, all i want is her photographs collection and her old wooden antique dressing table, she laughed and said how naive i was..

This is my Ah Chor with her late husband..She looks so stunning in her cheongsam, i wish the photo is clearer

Without the past there will be no present..My roots and background makes me who i am today..and i am proud to say that i am proud of who i really am. One day i will have my kebaya, and i want it to be a red one ♥

I love you Ah Chor ( my little nonya )

♫ of the moment : My Favourite Things - Olivia Ong

Melina Mercouri -Ta Pedia Tou Peria ( Never on a Sunday )

I've always love this version of Never on A Sunday, and Melina Mercouri is a classic beauty..Re Define Sexy ! She died in 1994 at the age of 73 from..... ...Lungs Cancer

If i have BALLS !

10 Things i wish i can do

1. Fart Out Loud in the elevator then laugh at all the annoyed faces

2. Jump on the table and sing' I dont give a ...- Peaches 'during meeting

3. Get down from the car during a traffic jam and run like a madman and point my middle finger at every car

4.Fuck my stupid diet and eat Double Whopper with CHEESE! , make it two Whopper with 3 large fries !!

5.Sleep whole day , turn off my celly and fuck work

6.Cut off all my hair ! Go Bald !

7.Draw a mustache, put on my pyjamas and go shopping

8.Stuff myself with Ikea's meatballs, i wana eat till i throw up !

9.Get drunk and dance in the rain

10.Calls him and then say ' YOU ARE NO BIG DEAL ' and hangs up

♫ of the moment : You Wouldn't Like Me -Tegan and Sara

Super Duper October

October has been superb crazy for me, I've attended 2 weddings , one funeral , an exhausting whole day photo shoot in Delicious -DUO, went to Pulau Pangkor and Port Dickson ! My schedule is so tight, it almost killed me with exhaustion.But Pheww im glad everything is over.

MY BIG BOS's Wedding

My CEO's wedding in Sunway Hotel

His Lovely Wife

Me and my bestie Nana

PULAU PANGKOR

Me and Veronica

Scream for ICE CReamm


My Best Friend's Wedding ( Kampar)


Mr and Mrs Cheong

Best maids

I wish u happiness


KA CHIK KA CHIK KACHING $ ! ( DUO, Christmas's photoshoot)



PORT DICKSON

Sea Rafting under the HOT SUN !

Girls Girls Girls

Kita Minum DULU

DrunkFucks

LoL RIP YAP

♫ of the moment : We Are Beautiful, We Are Doomed - Los Campesinos!

-THE END-

Its raining Gum Balls

If a gum ball is gonna fall from the sky every time i think of you , The sky will will be covered with wonderful colours cause it will be raining gum balls..A little too much and we will all be drowned in gumballs..That is how much little thoughts of you occupied my whole brain cells..

Well , did u realize it?

How can i tell you that you're always on my mind

I'm glad to hear from you again ..it makes me jump with excitement like a monkey ( well i exaggerate a little )

Such a childish thing to write, but who cares..i love the kid in me

♫ of the moment : Blue Skies - Noah and the Whale ( this song is beautifully written )

Isnt it Ironic?

The Greatest Irony of Love

1. Loving the Right person at the Wrong time

2. Having the Wrong person when the time is Right

3. And finding that you Love someone right after that person walks out of your life

'Love is like the wind , You Cant See it but You Can FEEL it'

♫ of the moment : Paper Planes - Angus and Julia Stone

The Arcade Fire- Wake Up

Somethin' filled up
my heart with nothin',
someone told me not to cry.

But now that I'm older,
my heart's colder,
and I can see that it's a lie.

Children wake up,
hold your mistake up,
before they turn the summer into dust.

If the children don't grow up,
our bodies get bigger but our hearts get torn up.
We're just a million little gods causin' rain storms turnin' every good thing to
rust.

I guess we'll just have to adjust.

With my lightnin' bolts a glowin'
I can see where I am goin' to be
when the reaper he reaches and touches my hand.

With my lightnin' bolts a glowin'
I can see where I am goin’
With my lightnin' bolts a glowin'
I can see where I am, go-go, where I am

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