I wrote this for you DumbDumb

Sometimes I wonder if God has his own team of designers to draw our story line and a team of writers to write our destiny. 2nd July 2011, it was my birthday night, I met a wonderful person. I have just crawled out from a bad relationship, and in the midst of healing, he walked into my miserable life. In another word, I think God gave him to me as my birthday gift.

I never have any luck in relationships. What I went through turn me into a cynic, but he came and he showed what it's like to be loved. He tried his best to keep me happy. He was the best gift I have ever received in life. I love him but It was my biggest mistake of not showing him that I do, I made him believe that I have been taking him granted. I made him believe that I have been taking selfishly when all he did was give.  And now here I am writing this, knowing that I have lost him and there is nothing I could do to turn back time. And it hurts, I can feel every part of me breaking inside.

Everything we own is temporary, it's on loan and it can be taken back at any time. If you love a person, you tell them everyday when you have the chance.  

I love you Hamed and I am sorry.

“I think I'm afraid of being happy because whenever I get too happy something bad always happens.” - Charlie Brown

Setting fire to our insides for fun

What happen to the girl in the picture..She used to be so happy

And if you're still breathing, you're the lucky ones
'Cause most of us are heaving through corrupted lungs
Setting fire to our insides for fun
Collecting names of the lovers that went wrong
The lovers that went wrong

♫ of the moment: Daughter - Youth

Into the rabbit hole

This too shall pass....

I've been down with pneumonia for the past 2 weeks. Up and down with fever, my body feels like it's going to fall into pieces and the horrible cough and not forgetting the dreadful medicines. I lay down in bed everyday feeling a patient on her deathbed.  Funny, how I used to think that pneumonia only happens in cold countries. 

It’s raining almost every day, the weather is as depressing as how I felt inside. This has been the hardest time for me and to have to go through it all by myself. 

How I wish we had Autumn over here.

♫ of the moment: The XX - Angels

Une Année Sans Lumière

I know I have been gone for almost 7 months! Here's 7 Happy Things I would love to share. Just a quick update, I will blog all about it in details soon ♥

  1.Gave my hair a major makeover! Dip Dye YAY! However,  it was supposed to be pink but ended getting a red hot foxtail instead.

Awesome job did by The Met Studio, Kuala Lumpur.

       Had an amazing 10 months ride in LivingSocial Malaysia. Joined them as their editor and gotten the opportunity to work with the most amazing editorial team ever. They are more than colleagues, they are my new found best friends and we work together like a family!

3. Visited Universal Studio, Singapore last month. Had so much fun with the girls



4. My shopping trip in Bangkok. Love the culture, the friendly people and the exotic food

                  5.  My best friend Veronica got married and I am one the bridesmaid

6. Been together with my fat boy for more than a year now

7. Discovered this amazing band, alt-J (∆). Your mind will be blown away I swear, their music will be stuck in your head for days, or weeks. Do check them out.

While My Guitar Gently Weeps

This Chinese New Year, we volunteered at the old folks at Silver Jubilee Home for the Aged. We youngsters complain about everything in our life, food is not good, clothes are not enough, weather is too hot. It was the second day of this big festive season among the Chinese, spend one day with them and you will see how lucky you are to have a family, to have food on your table and to have shelter or should I say a home. 

 The volunteers, my sisters and I and their friends

First we helped out those who are still healthy and strong with their lunch. 

Then we moved on to the ward, now that was the hardest part because everyone tried so hard not to cry in front of them. Some of them are so ill, they could not even get up from their bed. But I see a lot of happy faces when they see us. Most of them keep thanking us for coming.

 Joyce distributing red packets to everyone

I have a weakness when it comes to old people, the regret of not appreciating my late Grandparents when they were still around, the pain of losing them which I have not completely recovered from. In my humble personal opinion I just don't understand people who could have the heart to send their parents or family to a 'Home". I just don't get  how they can come with so much reasons and excuses to abandon their family for their own convenience in life.

 The nurse on duty insisted that we should meet this lady who has just turned a hundred recently, despite her age, she loves to chat and suddenly she burst out crying, I remember her holding my sister's hand and asked if any of us have seen her family. We had no idea at first but in the end we kinda figured out that all she wished was for her family to come and visit her.

Just remember that your parents did not give you up during hardship when you're young therefore you have no reason to give them up when they are old and helpless. Have a heart.

♫ of the moment: The Beatles - As My Guitar Gently Weeps

FriYAY - Picture should paint happiness

Friday has always been my favorite day of the week.
And so I've decided that every 5th day of the week I will share 5 random things which made me smile.
Here we go

Cotton candy (pink cloud machine)

Letter, train tickets and charms from Japan ( Thanks Ekoy )

Pretty flowers

Pretending to be white rabbits

Last but not least, my current fav song

A Toast to better things in life

May the New Year be kind to everyone

Everyone is busy writing down their resolutions, I have a long list of things which I wish I could do this year. Not to mention how I never accomplish any from the previous years.
For now, all I want is to be a less angry person and I wish I could learn to let certain things in life go.
I wish lust, hatred, greed, jealousy, and the monsters in my head will not win the battle.
May I grow older gracefully but remain young in heart

Wish all you a Happy New Year


♫ Of the Moment : Sigur Rós - Sæglópur