Friday, 17 July 2009

I want to FLY


I realised that sometimes people around me can be real pain in the ass..I miss my friends back in Penang..Friends who are really there for me..I dont need friends who made comments that made me feel bad about myself..Honesty is a good thing , but why cant they just let me be me.I've always been true to myself..

My mind is pretty messed up..Qatar Airways is coming to Malaysia again..and its tomorrow in JW Mariott Hotel ..My heart is telling me to go for, but my mind is telling ' NO , dont go ! '

Its just not easy for me..I know i can do it..alot of people says i can do it , im blessed with communication skills..So to be in profession where customer service is everything is certainly not a problem to me..BUT i'm not the typical Asian girl who is small , petite and skinny..Im big , i hate to be this tall..People just dont understand what its like to be me..

I see myself as a small town girl who has never step out of my stupid country.Being a flight attendant is my only ticket to get the hell ot of here..Honestly im proud to be chinese but i hate the fact i hate typical chinese minded people..and i dont want to waste my life away in Malaysia..I mean Come on..like u dont know what's people like here..mulut macam sial esp those conversative 'aunties'

I dont want to be a kampung girl.I want to go to places that i've never been before , i want to experience new cultures and lifestyle..i wana meet new faces and most of all I NEED A CHANGE, i need a new life

I wana escape from my crappy job..i wish i could say ' IN YOUR FACE' to all those people who says i cant make it ! And im not gona lie..i wish mum could stop working, its time for me to give her a better life.

I dont belong here..im not sure what lies ahead for me..But its my dream..and with encouragement from really good friends..i'd think im gona go for it tomorrow..and if i dont make it tru..im gona go home and cry ( im serious ) ..I'll just try again next year..I''ve always beleive that ' Everything Happens for a Reason '

2 comments:

-GiNo- said...

hey jas so did u went for it .....
i didnt get to read ur post til now....
if i were to read it earlier i would say go for it.... !!!!
no harm trying as i always tell u....
fail try again ler ....
we were not born perfect ....
but we were born with chances ....
so value it when we have the chance .... go out and go for any airline .... qatar is not that good go big go for Emirates, SIA or even Cathay Pasific....

alexisrolandwong said...

ITS OKAY TO FOLLOW UR DREAM N UR HEART B CONFIDENT IT CAN GET U THROUGH.......................................SO GAMBATE..........U HAD THE QUALITY K