Fat Kid Diary

Someone ruined my morning, which makes me want to write this. That someone is our office cleaner, she’s mute and most of the time we don’t understand what she is trying to say. Excuse me if I’m being a bitch but she really annoys me.

Yes I understand that you are handicap, but that doesn’t gives you the right to insult others. The first time it happen I was in the ladies for freshing up, she came up to me and starred at me .Then with her expression and sign language she told me that’s not the way to blush my cheeks , (Her make up is as thick as Chinese Opera singer , and mind me she is only the cleaner ). Fine I accept her honest comment.

Second time I wore a pretty white dress my friend got me from Australia , and in front of my colleague she uses her sign language and made fun of me saying I look like pregnant, I ignored her and my colleague knew that I was pissed so she ignored as well. And the cleaner keeps on repeating and laughs at her own lame joke.

And this morning in front of everyone again she made her signs which obviously says I'm FAT ,I don’t know why I let it get to me and out of anger I pointed my middle finger right at her face.

To be honest I felt insulted, at the same time sad. Does my weight matters to her? It’s so hard to stay confident and comfortable with my own body. Every time I try to tell myself I am pretty regardless what size I am, someone will say something mean. Everyone has something to say about what I wear and what I should not wear. What is everyone’s fucking problem ? If I am fat so what?
I did not ask you to feed me.

Goodbye beautiful Wednesday morning, my mood is uglier than her face right now. 

Someone ruined my morning, which makes me want to write this. That someone is our office cleaner, she’s mute and most of the time we don’t understand what she is trying to say. Excuse me if I’m being a bitch but she really annoys me.

Yes I understand that you are handicap, but that doesn’t gives you the right to insult others. The first time it happen I was in the ladies for freshing up, she came up to me and starred at me .Then with her expression and sign language she told me that’s not the way to blush my cheeks , (Her make up is as thick as Chinese Opera singer , and mind me she is only the cleaner ). Fine I accept her honest comment.

Second time I wore a pretty white dress my friend got me from Australia , and in front of my colleague she uses her sign language and made fun of me saying I look like pregnant, I ignored her and my colleague knew that I was pissed so she ignored as well. And the cleaner keeps on repeating and laughs at her own lame joke.

And this morning in front of everyone again she made her signs which obviously says I'm FAT ,I don’t know why I let it get to me and out of anger I pointed my middle finger right at her face.

To be honest I felt insulted, at the same time sad. Does my weight matters to her? It’s so hard to stay confident and comfortable with my own body. Every time I try to tell myself I am pretty regardless what size I am, someone will say something mean. Everyone has something to say about what I wear and what I should not wear. What is everyone’s fucking problem ? If I am fat so what?
I did not ask you to feed me.

Goodbye beautiful Wednesday morning, my mood is uglier than her face right now.