Wednesday, 28 July 2010

Fat Kid Diary

Someone ruined my morning, which makes me want to write this. That someone is our office cleaner, she’s mute and most of the time we don’t understand what she is trying to say. Excuse me if I’m being a bitch but she really annoys me.

Yes I understand that you are handicap, but that doesn’t gives you the right to insult others. The first time it happen I was in the ladies for freshing up, she came up to me and starred at me .Then with her expression and sign language she told me that’s not the way to blush my cheeks , (Her make up is as thick as Chinese Opera singer , and mind me she is only the cleaner ). Fine I accept her honest comment.

Second time I wore a pretty white dress my friend got me from Australia , and in front of my colleague she uses her sign language and made fun of me saying I look like pregnant, I ignored her and my colleague knew that I was pissed so she ignored as well. And the cleaner keeps on repeating and laughs at her own lame joke.

And this morning in front of everyone again she made her signs which obviously says I'm FAT ,I don’t know why I let it get to me and out of anger I pointed my middle finger right at her face.

To be honest I felt insulted, at the same time sad. Does my weight matters to her? It’s so hard to stay confident and comfortable with my own body. Every time I try to tell myself I am pretty regardless what size I am, someone will say something mean. Everyone has something to say about what I wear and what I should not wear. What is everyone’s fucking problem ? If I am fat so what?
I did not ask you to feed me.

Goodbye beautiful Wednesday morning, my mood is uglier than her face right now. 


suhaisweet said...

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Joe's blog said...

You look great. For me you have a perfect body, I absolutely dislike those bony size 6 models. Some months ago I was only 50 kilos, I'm 1,68m tall, and I hated it. But it's a family problem. Everyone from my family is very slender. We eat very much and don't gain any weight. I always was too slim and very unhappy with it. It was a hard work to gain 8 kilos but now I'm happy to look more feminine, more like Marilyn Monroe :-))) I hate to be too thin. So please stay as you are, you look wonderful!

v a m p i r e said...

thanks , you make me feel better about myself.

haha i wish too be thin so i can eat whatever i want and not having to worry about gaining weight.

but i guess

everyone is beautiful and unique in their sizes, i hope i can learn to be comfortable with who i am

hugs and kisses

thank you so much for your kind words , i appreciates it :)


minnja said...

Hey, look great, you have a perfect body:)))

LOVE minnja

Meredith said...

love it Jas !

RaveDev said...

nobody's got the right to tell you what you should be. She's prob just jealous trust me. Don't let her get to you.

I have to admit though, a mute office cleaner lady that pisses everyone off would make an awesome character in a TV Show...

Bee said...

Pretty girl ! :)

Kazaztan Team said...

don't be look great...just ignore her...she not a professional jury...

v a m p i r e said...

thanks everyone ! i wont let anyone let me down :)

lauren carney said...

me oh my this is quite a cutesy display!
i must say i rather enjoy the lovely photos you have kindly shared!
happy blogging! x x

JULIE said...

and out of anger I pointed my middle finger right at her face.
---this is the best! HAHAHA :)

it happened to me. I was writing what I'm trying to say to another deaf in a paper so that we could communicate and the mean deaf was mocking me using the sign language imitating what I'm doing.

ERRR. i hated her then.

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