Winter Solstice - Soh Eee ( in Hokkien )

Soh EE ( People calls it Tong Yuen here ) is definetely my favourite chinese desert , no doubt ! I just love the sight of it , the colours, the smell of the hot ginger rock sugar syrup and the sweetness is simply delightful.

When we're little , the best thing about having Soh Ee is the process of making it , me and my sisters will help my grandparents to roll out mini colourful balls .I will normally roll out more pink ones.And instead of the typical round balls, we willl compete to make new shapes, we will create smiley faces, animals and any silly and odd shapes that we can imagine.But in the end, our 'creative' soh ee obviously dont look as pretty as we want it to be, once everything is drop into the bowling hot syrup . It will either sticks together or the the smiley face we made will look like a plastic surgery malfunction . And ends up nobody wanting to eat them.

Every time we had Soh Eee, Ah Kong will remind us that we're one year older and ask us to be good . Now we're all grown up, we dont made Soh EEe anymore, my Grandparents are no longer here. Plus we can just simply get the Instant One from the supermarket. And that is what exactly Mum is gonna make this year , I've just check with her tru MSN ! Bonkers !

P/s: I hope that everyone will have a good time tonight with their loved ones. Do Remember that Soh Ee is a symbolic of fullness and being together.

I miss you Ah Ma and Ah Kong

♫ of the moment :Big Yellow Taxi : Joni Mitchell

Air - The Owls

no head, no heart, no hurry, no hate, no fun, no muss, no city, no state,

no card, no kid, no call, no kiss, no book, no bread, no hit, no miss,

no tears, no laugh, no love, no sin, no hand to put my handshake in

no header, no footer, no girl, no boy, no good, no better, no touch, no toy

there is only air

where i used to care

All i want for Christmas..

ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS . . .

Is

A Brand New Life, A Happy One

♫ of the moment : Calendar Girl - Stars

Misfits

Sometimes do u have the feeling of being left behind.Despite having so many people who claim to be your friends. AS you grow older, friends seems to change and everyone is busy dealing with their lives and the new faces they met , it makes you feel like you're all by yourself ?

I hate this feeling...

♫ of the moment : Raindrops - Regina Spektor

What a feeling..

Sometimes you wish you were a little kid again. Skinned knees are easier to heal than broken hearts…

Oftentimes, you are not really afraid of loving someone. You’re just afraid of not being loved back.

Sometimes, you have to accept the fact that some people are going to stay in your heart forever…even if you are gone in theirs.

You can’t make something feel right when you know that it’s wrong.

In a sentence of love, oftentimes you have to put a period on something that has to end and not just settle on a comma. In time, you will realize that it’s nicer to see a complete sentence rather than a phrase that’s completely hanging and doesn’t even make any sense.

p/s - all the quotes above are not from me , photo courtesy of Welcome to my heart

♫ of the moment : Something - The Beatles

Just a Boy - Angus and Julia Stone

Angus is really really cute, great song, brilliant video concept ..♥ their songs

''you make me wanna feel, things that i never felt before''....

Ho Ho Hoe

Syiok-ing sendiri under the big Christmas tree

1st of December ..Already ?
and because i'm lame, out of ideas and lazy
This random shit will be my very first December Post :)

10 Things You Want For Christmas
1. Money to pursue my degree in Fine Arts
2. Diana + F Lomo Cam
3. Holga ( lomo cam)
4. Polaroid
5. Antique Music Box
6. Antique hand mirror
7. Heart Pendant which i can put photos in it and wears it around my neck
8. Complete Collection of all Beatles's Albums
9. A new Sony 8gb mp3 Player, 16gb will be better
10. Dead Poet's Society original DVD or cetak rompak, it doesn't matter..i want this movie so badly

9 musicians/bands you love:
1. Beatles
2. Los Campesinos !
3. Sigur Ros
4. Angus and Julia Stone
5. Lykke Li
6. Yeah Yeah Yeahs
7. Simon and Garfunkel
8. Vivian Girls
9. Couer De Pirate

8 things you do everyday:
1. Sleep
2. Listen to Music
3. OverEAT
4. Dig my nose
5. fart
6. daydream
7. bitching

7 things you enjoy:
1. Music
2. sarcasm
4. the sight of stacked books in an old book store
5. the smell of a coffee house ( its ironic cos i never like coffee)
6. movie which makes me cry
7. rides in the back of the car ,looking out of the window with my ear phones :)

6 things that will always win your heart:
1. music junkie who loves music and can talk music with me , if you get what i mean..
2. someone who can pisses me off so badly but at the same time makes me laugh
3. someone who enjoy insanity as much as i do
4. wicked sense of humor
5. someone who makes me feel like im everything even when im nothing
6. someone who will at least pretends to like the things i like..

5 favourites:
1. Movie: Dead Poet's Society
2. Song: Ellen Save our Energy - Windmill ( my addiction of the moment )
3. Book: Complete Collection of Fairy Tales from Brothers Grimm and Hans Christian Anderson
4. Food: Burger and Fries
5. Season: Autumn.. i guess

4 smells you enjoy:
1. Lavender
2. Marshmallow
3. Frangipani ( bunga Kemboja)
4. jasmine

3 places you want to go:
1. Florence , Italy
2. South of France
3. Tibet

2 Favorite Celebrity
1. Nicholas Saputra
2. Bono U2 for saving the world

1 person you’d marry on the spot:
1. River Phoenix if he is still alive


♫ of the moment : Ageless Beauty - Stars

Save Your ♥ For Me

I first read about this track from a review in a music blog , then i downloaded it and i was like thinking BLAHH, what a weird song and totally forgotten about it then this few days i put my ear phone on and while waiting for the God Damn bus in the morning, i played this song and put in on repeat and as weird as it seems, i am totally addicted right now. Brilliant brilliant track ! totally ♥ it !

And i was wondering , is there anyone out there who loves the kind of music i love and i'm glad that there are ! They are out there somewhere !

check out some of this really awesome music blog

• Pop Headwound

• ( thanks to Fitry , he recommended this page cause he knows i love weird bands )

• P/s check out his T shirt Design in melongray ! its superb !

• Music For Kids Who cant spell Good

• I am waking up to....

Support Indie Music !

I am feeling hyper when i knows that i am not the only one who loves the music i love !

♫ of the moment : Save Your Love For Me - Quinn Walker
( you can check out Suckers version too, Both are equally Brilliant ! )

Melina Mercouri -Ta Pedia Tou Peria ( Never on a Sunday )

I've always love this version of Never on A Sunday, and Melina Mercouri is a classic beauty..Re Define Sexy ! She died in 1994 at the age of 73 from..... ...Lungs Cancer

Super Duper October

October has been superb crazy for me, I've attended 2 weddings , one funeral , an exhausting whole day photo shoot in Delicious -DUO, went to Pulau Pangkor and Port Dickson ! My schedule is so tight, it almost killed me with exhaustion.But Pheww im glad everything is over.

MY BIG BOS's Wedding

My CEO's wedding in Sunway Hotel

His Lovely Wife

Me and my bestie Nana

PULAU PANGKOR

Me and Veronica

Scream for ICE CReamm


My Best Friend's Wedding ( Kampar)


Mr and Mrs Cheong

Best maids

I wish u happiness


KA CHIK KA CHIK KACHING $ ! ( DUO, Christmas's photoshoot)



PORT DICKSON

Sea Rafting under the HOT SUN !

Girls Girls Girls

Kita Minum DULU

DrunkFucks

LoL RIP YAP

♫ of the moment : We Are Beautiful, We Are Doomed - Los Campesinos!

-THE END-

Its raining Gum Balls

If a gum ball is gonna fall from the sky every time i think of you , The sky will will be covered with wonderful colours cause it will be raining gum balls..A little too much and we will all be drowned in gumballs..That is how much little thoughts of you occupied my whole brain cells..

Well , did u realize it?

How can i tell you that you're always on my mind

I'm glad to hear from you again ..it makes me jump with excitement like a monkey ( well i exaggerate a little )

Such a childish thing to write, but who cares..i love the kid in me

♫ of the moment : Blue Skies - Noah and the Whale ( this song is beautifully written )

Isnt it Ironic?

The Greatest Irony of Love

1. Loving the Right person at the Wrong time

2. Having the Wrong person when the time is Right

3. And finding that you Love someone right after that person walks out of your life

'Love is like the wind , You Cant See it but You Can FEEL it'

♫ of the moment : Paper Planes - Angus and Julia Stone

The Arcade Fire- Wake Up

Somethin' filled up

my heart with nothin',

someone told me not to cry.

But now that I'm older,

my heart's colder,

and I can see that it's a lie.

Children wake up,

hold your mistake up,

before they turn the summer into dust.

If the children don't grow up,

our bodies get bigger but our hearts get torn up.

We're just a million little gods causin' rain storms turnin' every good thing to

rust.

I guess we'll just have to adjust.

With my lightnin' bolts a glowin'

I can see where I am goin' to be

when the reaper he reaches and touches my hand.

With my lightnin' bolts a glowin'

I can see where I am goin’

With my lightnin' bolts a glowin'

I can see where I am, go-go, where I am

You'd better look out below

Rediscover ♫

These are a handful of indie artist that i like and listen to a lot lately..Their music is brilliant , but so sad to say that 75% of Malaysian are into mainstream music which has been over commercialized ..I have nothing against mainstream bands..Its just not my thing. Plus i don't really fancy watching MTV or listen to local radio anymore..Cause obviously they over played certain songs from certain artist, I swear i'm gonna throw up the next time i hear any track from Lady Gaga or Black Eye Peas. People likes to judge me from the type of music i listen to , and let me it clear for one last time , i don't label the music i listen to, I listen to whatever i want , whenever i want..

Just because i don't listen to some shitty bands which is suppose to be the ' Biggest Thing ' right now or screaming like an idiot in some over crowded concert full of posers and the crap band they worshiped , Doesn't mean i am WEIRD , and i don't claim myself an indie kid , i just happen to love indie music

Music is a Universal Genre so Why Stereotype?


Los Campesinos ! My Fav Band of the moment

Angus and Julia Stone

Vivian Girls

Joanna Newsom ( Peach , Plum , Pear got me addicted )


Ingrid Michaelson


Grizzly Bear



The Shins


Laura Marling


Slow Club


Noah and the Whale

♫ of the moment :She's got you High - Mumm Ra

Au Revoir Couer , Fascinating New Thing

Its been 1 month and 3 days now..i wonder why am i counting

Randomly out of no where,

I've decided to end this madness..I am losing myself , whats difference am i with everything that i am against of , i laugh at girls who will sit by the phone and wait for the guy to call, i mock fun at girls who spend most of their time talking and thinking about their boy..I used to see myself an independent modern girl who don't need a boyfriend to show the world that i am happy..Are boys really that big deal? Then when it comes to him , my mind just went retarded and dysfunctional ..Love? Like ? Crush? whatever it was, i knew i liked him ..Now i ask myself 'What the fuck am i doing '

Is this how liking someone feels like? Or is it just the thrill i felt when i don't get something that i want..Friends said i just want him because i knew the harder it was to get what i want , the more i crazy i gets..but when i finally had it, i'll get bored of it..well, I DONT KNOW ..all i know now is i like him ! i don't know why, i don't have a bloody reason and i don't understand how But i like him..

Reading my old posts makes me sick , where is my pride? Why did i even made him the reason and my inspiration to write..

I felt so stupid and tired

I guess the Merry Go Round has finally stop spinning , its time to get off and puke ..

Goodbye heart..its time to seal it up and lock it again

This will be my last time to write about stupid things like feelings and emotions and ...him.....

Said it like i mean it..

So long, fascinating new thing...

-THE END -

♫ of the moment : Until We Bleed- Keerup Feat Lykki Li * i'll never get bored of this song

Fuck Facebook , Fuck you and you and You

FUCKDEAD tired ,

7 hours of sleep is still never enough for me, im like a desperate addict without my morning fix.

DAMN ...

Logged into Facebook and as usual........its all of the bullshit below

Facebook is fully spammed with over-shared information..Annoying meaningless status. Straight guys who are desperate to adds up every single girl from your friend list ( slow down buddy, you dont just insert your tiny dick into any hole u see ) NOW DO U KNOW WHY U ARE DELETED from my friend list?..Stalkers who stalks your page everyday and leaving idiotic comments on every single thing u post..YOU ARE DELETED TOO
Geeklords posting up not so funny clips , Miss Miss cutie wannabe posting up lame chinese videos .OHMYGOD its so irritating..Wait till i start to talk about the people who is screaming for attention in Facebook..Typical Chinese trying to be Japanese, Adults trying to act cute like kids..Sluts desperately needs a dick posting up semi porn photos ,Grown up ugly women trying to strike model poses and look like shit ! Ugly and uglier photos are uploaded and they think its cool..If i know i look like crap , i will not post up my ugly photo and say ' oh i look like crap' and expect people to comment on it with denials comments such as ' Oh you are pretty my dear' Losers commenting each other's everything ...

By the way all of the losers above are removed from my Facebook ( so please dont syiok sendiri , i am not talking about you if you felt that im writing about you ) Some of you are still in my list cause i am trying not to be a pain in the ass bitch :)

Well, i admit i'm being shallow, Cause if you're good looking , popular and if you're naturally cool , you gets away with all of the above, But it gets to my nerves when you're a geek but you 're trying so hard to show the world that you're cool? arghh things dont work this way laaaH..But, i guess you're a little cooler than your dorky friends..

I am not mean , i am just telling the ugly truth

What irritates me most is guys who post up really fucked up status , if you're being so emotionally depressed , why dont you just jump off a building or drink up a bottle of detergent or do slit your wrist..JUST DO whatever it takes as long as i dont see anymore gay status of yours in Facebook..

And also, PLEASE stop publishing every single lame quizzes ! One or two a day is okay but some people are like so kiasu... ARGHHHHHHH .....Its blinding my eyes...it hurtsss...MY EYES...................

Why are some people so plain dumb ? Its okay if u wanna share stuff with your friends but over do it by posting a lame status every 1 hour of the day is fucking spamming my home wall..and I am not interested to know..WAY TOO MUCH INFORMATION...How can someone's life be happening when you're stuck in front of your desktop updating your lifeless life every single second, minute and hour of the day ! GET A LIFE LOSERSSSSSsss !

Nobody wants to know every single detail of your daily boring life..

I used to be a Facebook addict too, i posted up music videos from time to time too , i write notes , i comment on my friend's photos and stuff...I check out my old friend's photos and updates to stay in touch..I posted up status with quotes , lyrics and whatever that is on my mind ..BUT I DID NOT OVER DO IT LIKE THEM , cause i don't need all this unwanted attention, I HAD A LIFE , a real one...IN YOUR FACE = p

I am enjoying my chocolate sundae will trashing people like u

♫ of the moment : Two Weeks - Grizzly Bear

Like a Song

Like a song in my head which is on repeat , Like a song which im singing in my heart

Songs that makes me think of...him

Gotta have you -The Weepies
Super Trouper - Camera Obscura
Piano Song - Meiko
Be Be Your Love- Racheal Yamagata
Thinking, Drinking, Sinking, Feeling-Slow Club
New Romantic - Laura Marling
Writing to Reach you- Travis
Shape of my heart - Noah and the Whale
Bury my head-Kate Walsh
Sway- Big Runga
Ku Katakan Dengan Indah - Yuna
Chasing Pavements- Adele

I wish i can spend a day without thinking of you cause i know you're not thinking of me

All Apologies and Smiles, Yours Truly Ugly Valentine - Carissa's Wierd

So they're all gone now

That took a long time

You're the only one

Who'd be my valentine

I didn't want that

To drive you crazy

I should've done something

I guess im lazy

Feeling down low now

Someone tell me what i should do

Because i've never been perfect

But i never meant to drag down you so

If i'm dragging you down now

I could wait in the lost and found

Just promise me you'll be perfect

And i promise that i'll come around sometimes

To say hello all smiles

Maybe it's time to let go

Probably doesn't even weigh that much now

So i'll drop it

I'll turn around fast

I'll shake your hand and take

Six steps back

We'll have a seat and light another cigarette

We'll have a drink for nothing to regret

We'll clap our hands when, when we hear that sound

We won't be sad now

We won't be feeling down

We could live or die

And have a great time

I'll be your valentine

What an ugly valentine

We could live or die

And have a great time

You'll be my valentine

Photo of the Day

Oh my god , cant beleive September is ending ...

Things to do today - STOP THIKING ABOUT YOU!

♫ of the moment : Molly's Chamber-Kings of Leon (on repeat)

Marmalade French Toast ♥

Love -aimer

Hate-detester

I love you-Je t'aime

I hate you -Je te déteste ! !

Dumb- sourd

Sky-ciel

Rain-pluie

Cake-gâteau.

Sweets-bonbons

Music-musique

Clouds-nuages

Feelings-sentiments

Heart-cœur

Shoes-chaussures

Lavender-lavande

White lilies-blanc nénuphars

Stars-étoiles

Moon-lune.

Books-livres

Fairytales-les contes de fees

I am thinking of you-e pense à vous :(

♫ of the moment : Berceuse - Couer De Pirate

Comme Des Enfants

Well, some people say one rascal is enough to drive u nutz but i had 2 rascals in my life ..Double Trouble ! They're my evil twin sisters , Jesse and Jolene .

Like any typical sisters , we used to fight alot , YES.. hair pulling , bitch slapping , calling each other names , saying hurtful things to win the meaningless cat fights..

But it was always Fun , because i will never be alone when i always have them..We grew up pretty normal in a not so rich but loving family..We're like 3 meat balls when we're kids , So basically what we hate most during each family gathering was having to deal with the endless comments from Aunts and Uncles which normally goes - WAH , what your grandma feeds you all ? or Look at how chubby u guys are ! haha But now as we're grown up , Both of them became stick thin and i am still struggling with my ups and downs of weight problem ! chuckles * The best part is now the mak ciks mak ciks started to comment on how skinny they were , and they should start eating more ( typical chinese family , well..it happens most of the time )
But growing up is awesome , too many goddamngood memories to be written down , i love the days when we live with our Ah chor ( great grandmother) in her heritage house back in Penang , I'm a big bully back then , i will steal all of their toys ! So they have to hide it from me or refuse to play with me cause i refuse to lose in all games , haha i will throw tantrum whenever i am not winning..( its so easy to cheat away all their money in Monopoly )..We used to play Asia Bagus ( a famous Tv Show back then in TV3 ) We will gather at Ah Chor's porch right at the big swing , Wendy from next door and our Chen E E ( my mum's cousin) will join sometimes ..We will pretend that we're the contestants and sing using a skipping road's head as our microphone..

Grandma will make us uniform pyjamas lol and we gotta march up to sleep sharp at 8pm..Grandma even made clothes for our barbie dolls, ( Only God knows how much i missed her ) Every morning we ride on a trishaw to school, my sisters will purposely kick the bags off the trishaw and run around everywhere so Ah Pek have to chase after them..At night we sleep at our grandma's room and will start to talk about nonsense and laugh about it.During school breaks we will go down to KL for holidays at Mum's place , what we love most was video games ..we will fight after the controller ( Even my late grandma loves video games )

When im 9 all of us moved back to Kuala Lumpur to live with mum..Every weekend Grandpa will drive us to different malls to shop ! Then he taught us how to ride bicycles , there is once Jesse's bike crashed and she fell into the drain ! Opppssss.. !
We attended Malay school and made alot of malay friends,which explains why we speak perfect malay and im proud of it ! We ride Pak Cik Razak's school bus , and we will bully little rude boys!

Then there's a time when i created some really stupid songs and three of us will sing and record it down with a tape player..It was so fucking hilarious , we sound like chipmunks and the lyrics of my songs were fucking retarded ! I don't know where the tapes went as we were always moving from one house to another..

It will take forever if i were to write down every single memory which is engraved in my heart, So i'll stop here..

Jesse , Jasmine & Jolene

We grew closer as we were older..As we learn to appreciates our family more..I love them and i hope they loved me too haha but obviously They LOVE ME too . If U mess with one J then u mess with the other J's ! I am grateful to have u both in my love ♥

♫ of the moment : Melody Fair - Bee Gees ( My all time favourite )

How nice IF

I wish i'm in lying on the green green grass with a big pair of sunnies right now and feel the breeze with my hands..And of course with my mp3 on my side and a good book to read..( when i say book , i really meant book not Shin Chan!! ) I do read ,... SOMETIMES..when i feel like it


Too early to day dream, back to work ..a 100 Sighs ..did u know i hate working ?

But its ok , i have songs that reminds me of the blue sky and my green green grass..♥

Coeur de pirate -C'Ttait salement romantique
Yuna - Deeper Conversations
Rosie Thomas- Say Hello
Bee Gees- Melody Fair
Estrella - Stay
Camera Obscura - Super Trouper
Bic Runga -Listening for the weather
Corrine Railey Bay- Put Your records on
The Carpenters- Rainbow Connection
Beatles - Here Comes The Sun
Sixpence non the Richer - Kiss Me

My Little Monster

She's 9 this year ! She speaks perfect mat salleh English ! ( thanks to watching non stop cartoons ) She's the biggest pain in the ass but melt u to death by her cuteness when she plays angel ! She's annoying , she's fat but dislikes it when we teased her that she's wearing adult's size S ! But this trip back , she 's slimmed down..So the other day my mum calls her little fatty , she cockily replied ' I am not fat anymore ok' haha

Her mum gave her one of her old celly lately , so from time to time when she's bored she'll text me and my mum ! Sometimes i hardly understand what she's trying to say through her SMS , u cant blame me with her terrible spellings But the only words that she always got it right is PUKIMAK or hey Fucker what are you doing ? Its in the family blood..she'll grew up pretty all right just like US haha

This is supposedly her sexy face with her giganto Lollipop which caused me Rm6.90

You still think she's CUTE ?

But we loved her to death , she's the apple of the eyes of my late grandparents..Nobody will beleive it thats she's actually a Miracle Child , She had a hole in heart when she's born , and she undergo major operations when she's merely 4 ! Which explains why she is spoilt by everyone.

Her family is falling apart just like ours , sometimes i felt bad for all the mean things i did to her. Like the other day , she insisted that she wants a set of Toys which are made for boys from Toys R Us..its 50++ plus for 3 stupid balls which suppose to turn into a machine when u threw them on a magnetic card ..I mean i am trying to teach her the value of money but she begin to throw tantrum and called me names so i walked away leaving her there..Then she run behind and went to my mum , i can see her eyes are wet..and it makes me feel so so bad..

She doesnt wana talk to me , but it happens all the time ..We became friends again after buying her that Giganto Lollipop ! LoL Kids will always be kids..

I Love my fat monster

♫ of the moment :Sweet Child O Mine - Taken By Trees ( Guns & Roses Cover)